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Year End Conclusion

In a blink, another year is coming to an end soon. I guess, updating this blog is gonna be an annual thing haha.

From 2016 till now...ending of 2017. Life have been more happy and enjoyable except that i have been spending too much :p

Last year, was great as i get to bring mum on travel overseas. Its a pity its not the whole family though but im glad mum is happy. I will learn to plan something more relaxing for her as her energy level is not as high already.

Parents age are catching up, the time spent with them may be shorter and shorter. Hope i can spend more quality time with them.

Life is full of unpredictables. Grandma was hospitalised suddenly when she was seeing the doc for having diarrhoea. The diagnosis was so sudden that her blood pressure was too low n her kidney has water(as drip coz of dehydration) need to do dialysis?! But in order to do it, her pressure need to be normal.

Doctor gave us a shock as they informed grandma is in critical condition. What a turn from diarrhoea to critically ill. So eventually grandma was admitted n in ICU for a few weeks before condition stabled and transferred to normal ward. Whole family has been going to the hospital everyday to visit her, praying that her condition will improve. Its sad when seeing her in bed with so many tubes. Its an agony for her and she keep pleading to just let her go, she has lived enough. Really really sad to see loved ones in this state. But thank god she recovered.

Thats the major happening in 2016. Work life is norm, no ups or down. Personal life...travel too much haha :p 1 yr went taiwan 3 times: 1st with emily (my ex-manager), 2nd with Mum n Bj, 3rd is with Karen at year end. In between, went Seoul too. Think im over doing n burning my pocket a big big hole.
Somemore my BTO is gonna be ready earliest in 2018, latest by Sept 2019. Gosh, can't believe im getting my own house soon.
So its a happening 2016 lol ^o^

2017....toward the closure of this year. What has been going on this year?

1st half of the year is quiet and peaceful. No travel, no spending.
But 2nd half...1 taiwan, 1 Melbourne n 1 last min Sydney :p

Taipei with Bj is a short trip. It has been a while since last travelled with her alone. Its a shopping n eating trip haha.

Melbourne, finally make a trip there alone to find Qing. Its a total different feel to travel alone. Get to spend some time with Qing. Its a good catch up, although i feel a bit paiseh disturbing her routine. Its an enjoyable 1 week break. Great weather, nice company, good alone space.
While Qing is away @ work, i get to spend alone time in the house. Break from all, look out at the greens, enjoy the wind. Mind is at peace.

I never thought i will go Australia again so soon. The following month after the Melbourne trip, mum is free to travel again. Last min decide to go Sydney. I do not mind to travel with her but the planning made me felt pissed n money spent not worth for that trip.
The agency is a cheat! Overall, trip is good, mum enjoyed the weather but we decided, next time just family, no more with others.

Some happenings set me thinking of my past.
Hmm looking back at my past blog postings, a question start floating in my mind...how did i overcome the mentally stressed n depress period?
Past postings mostly are not happy. Its not a few months, but a few years...I wonder how many people did read into it haha.
I have been a reserved person, not able to speak my mind. Im not good at words and cannot express myself well.
I guess its also a habit since young. Whatever said the reply will be, "its like that". Then whats there for me to say anymore. I start to keep things to myself as there is no one to turn. I dare not let others know as the fear of being judged or be looked down is way more worse for a kid. When get older, i learn to digest the angoise n release the emotion by crying.
Late in the night when everyone is asleep, that is the time where crying in silence is my outlet of clearing the grievance.
So when one tell me to open up and tell, how hard it is for me. The insercurity and defenceless feel is just not what i like. I hope people understand but i fear being see through. Dilemma.
But im learning to open up....learning still. So please don't try to dig too deep as i will feel intimidated n remain silent.
Smiling is the best cover for me. It makes me feel positive. If 1 day i stop smiling........
So be more positive, look on the bright side, and don't feel depress and lonely anymore.

To end this post, Life is a Journey. Live it, experience it, enjoy it. SMILE :)