How to live a life wifout comic...

Another end of a year...bye 2011....

2011-12-28T12:50:00.000+08:00

It has been a year since i last written anything here. Time is really slipping without knowing it has already passed by so fast.
This year is quite meaningful but also accompany with lotsa ups & downs.

My memory is failing...age catching up:p But the good memories are always there. The bad i will erase n forget from my mind! Dun wanna make myself feel so miserable and in anger>.<
Why does the bad thing have to continue till this time of the year?! Haiz...dun wanna start this entry in complaints:(

To update the happy moments^o^

Have 2 main wonderful trips this year which is like never before of taking 7hrs of flight.
1st trip is to Melbourne with Net to visit Qing at the same time to relax n nuah hohoho ^o^v It is really a super relax free & easy 5 days trip with good company, nice weather & scenery.
Was recommended to take Emirates and Viola! Service is gd and the pricing is gd lol.
Have a great time catching up and also to see the city that dear friend Qing is residing in.
Will wanna go visit again:)

2nd trip is to Korea (Seoul + Jeju-Do). Its my 1st time going on a tour package.
All the previous trips were free and easy so i was a little nervous when go on this tour as many have told me that the timing is rushing & have to wake up super early for traveling=.=lll
Lucky thing is, this tour was not rushing and our guide n leader are really nice people. Made friends with the tour leader too, really nice n bubbly person. Jeju-do was a great place. We were there when it was announced being selected as one of the 7 wonders of Nature! Guess what, me n BJ was caught on Jeju's TV news as we are at one of the venue where the celebration was taking place.
We were thrilled to see our faces on the news:p Too bad did't manage to tape it down cause too sudden haha. Tried a lot of stuff @ jeju like going for Jetboat, ATV ride, under the sea in Submarine, fruit plucking @ tangerine farm etc^^
Korea is a really good place for shopping. Can't believe that i actully overspent there >.< As the season is late autumn going to winter, the weather was cold but i'm enjoying it:)
Shincheon station there has a street like the HK's nu ren jie or was it like taiwan's wufenpu. Nevertheless, its great to shop! Have not manage to go round the whole of Dongdaemun:( Hopefully i can have another free & easy trip there again^o^v (provided have enough $$ saved).
Next target trip is to Japan! Have to Save! Save! Save!

Due to an unpleasant incident, my 5 yr award ($500) n part of bonus was taken up to pay for a lump sum ($700+) that was not my mistake! This month is a super broke month as there its Christmas n also lotsa of bday babies...d bonus has been used to buy presents and paid the bills...what do i have left? Happily thinking "Yesh, finally a month i can get $3k+ of pay"...like real sia....Luckily i still hv the additional 3 days leave from d 5 yr award...but the $$ haiz...

Another sad thing is the closing of the comic shop Xun Meng Yuan aka Comic Dreamland. Since secondary school, the shop has been my hangout place. Reading comic has been a hobby since young starting from Dragonball, Slamdunk, Fushigi Yugi, Yu Yu Hakusho, Sailormoon, Naruto, Bleach etc etc...so many i have read and it keeps me immerse in fantasy world, releasing the everyday stress and always inspiring me with imagination. Without this hangout place, i won't have met this group of wonderful friends for life buddies. I wonder if without a place like this when i need a place to stay and be away from home issue, without the people i met there, will i go astray in my teenage years? This is also where i start my 1st part-time job as a shop assistant and brushing up on customer service lol :p. Mayb at a period of time when grew older, this place no longer play as important role as before but it is a place full of fond memories. The birthday celebrations, the x'mas & new year parties, the guardian angel games brought the group of friends and staff real close. When heard about the closing, there seems like some part is lose somewhere...Although there is a period that the place was avoided but there are no forever grouches. Eventually i still went back and borrow books as usual or chit chat with the staff etc. Previously it was downsizing but its still there...now it is closing down...there is a kind of sadness that is indescribable ;( The boss has been kind and sold us d comic at a really cheap deal and till d last day, even gave us for free...asking us to adopt the comic...the love for comic reading never die..re-reading the books i have, lying on bed reading, a great way to spend free time @ home besides sitting in front of pc watching online dramas:p Bye XMY ;(.....

Yes, the year is ending and closing my entry. Looking back...seems like i didn't acheive much. Am always wondering like i have been always doing things but what am i doing actually? Dilemma....

Setting resolution for next year!
1. To take up a language course!
2. Take JLPT n4 exam
3. Keep fit
4. Earn and save more >.<
5. Go on Holiday!

A feeling that i thought long forgotten...

2010-10-26T21:27:00.002+08:00

Today when got home from work, i was feeling very normal as usual. Until i went to the room and change out of my working attire, i found all d clothes on the hanging bar is gone! It thought mum has cleared off for washing...so went to ask her...
To my astonishment, she said she threw all away into the rubbish chute!!! For goodness sake, i HATE it when i find my stuff missing and was not even asked and the next moment, it will never be found!
I was blamed for not clearing(?!) whereby she told me to clear another pile yesterday instead of my clothes ah! I HATE to be accused of and blamed for things not rightfully told to me yet why am i taking the blame?!
I thot this feeling will not come back after aunt passed away!! Why! WHY!!!!!!
I'm not that painful that some clothes are actually quite ex and limited edition...but what pains me is the arguement that mean to point i din keep my stuff properly that why lost is 活该!
Like i am staying in a place of not my own home....i cannot put things at the desired place (where clothes are to be hang up? is not the right place???!!!) and no need ask me and throw whatever liked....
*ARGH!!!!!!!!!* ;(

1st blog of 2010: Full of complaints:(

2010-01-26T11:01:00.002+08:00

A very fast passing of January for year 2010! A new year, new happenings....but same old problem....

There is a project involvement in Brunei which i am very fortunately involved and gained quite a bit of experience. Experience not only abt the working culture in other countries, but also experiencing the lack of involvenment from our own staff when pertaining to information gathering...*sigh*...

A lot of times we are made to face users directly which initially we are told that we are not suppose to cos we are the partner party actually. But if we dun, a lot of call flow will not be able to be configured on time!

Well, i am lucky that i have a team of very spontaneous colleagues that are very supportive. The project is done n here i am, back in singapore.

The best part now is....i am suppose to do documentation for this project. From what i know...every since i joined this company, there is not even 1 copy of a documention of a client's system! Here i am, trying to consolidate all infos. Doing this documentation is like doing my presentations for training. It is never an easy job. But i'm pressed over n over again (u know from who again la) to have a dateline to finish this doc up and also to have a copy in my dept. The best part is, even if my dept hv a copy, how many of them will really go n read it up? Moreover, we are unable to login remotely too ah?!

Think my product manager is rite, he do not intend to give any at all. All this while he pressed for a client's doc but also till now see nothing. Then now i'm suppose to do up 1!!!! Moreover, he is doing this documentation with me. Final say to release this documention depends on him....wat am i to say??

If this is easy, please try doing then come n press me. So SO SSSSSOOOOOOOO IRITATED!!!!!!
Reminded me about doing the powerpoint for training! 1st time give training, then hv to do all 6 products at 1 go!!! Whereby 3-4 of it is i dun use de lor! Blood boiling!!!!
Everytime they say is for experience...but have they consider what i have gone through?!
Was told to have a class size best to keep within 10 but at site i have 25!!

*sign*...as many have said, this is my choice of job...if i am unhappy about it, what for i still cling on to it.

Dunno why now this resentment is building up in me...*unhappiness*.....

Crappy talks!

2009-08-20T09:22:00.004+08:00

Wow...long long time din blog already. But this entry is not something nice...wanna find a place to complain then start this...
I'm super pissed this morning! My mum is sick, need someone to take care and nudge her go see doc. So i initially tot bring her go doc then go in office a bit later but well...seems like more checks need to be done, so i took urgent leave instead:(
So, as usual, i msg whole dept. As usual sup asked if have any outstandings. I clearly stated "I DO NOT HAVE OUTSTANDING" doesn't it literally means that i do not have cases under myself that needs followup?? The 3 cases i informed aka for FYI only as these cases are already known to almost all in d dept even she herself know d lor and the next course of action is not decided by me so is a matter of to do or not not do thing only. How UNPROFESSIONAL am i in not handing over job well. I need enlightenment here!!
Do you think i take urgent leave for fun? Do i take my mum's health as a joking matter?? Do u think i deliberately not want to go to work??
I'm already upset about my mum's health here and i still get this kind of message telling me "How u expect the rest to answer the questions if u not in later. not profession 4 handling over jobs!" Fancy send me another message: "remember dept works as a team! no one is a standalone personnel. teamwork & cooperation is impt to keep job going". Hello! I take my work seriously, i want to work as a team more then anyone else but i seems to be the outcast here lor. fancy telling me abt team work! How many times am i not aware there is some kind of training or who going on leave? everyone in d dept know except me! Sometimes being asked then how to answer?? "eh...i nv hear got training"? what it tells others? my team-mates r not sharing info with me?? Asking me how come nv tell them the day b4 yesterday abt some company case they are working on but only tell them yesterday, i dun even know they are toking abt the case lor! The only thing i know is that d case was to get customers to ask their authoriy if want to commence the case but not confirm anything mah, my part already case closed this issue back in june! What u wan me to write/ email to inform all??
Haiz...never mind lah. I already very tired about it. I'll just d my part of job. I know bj will be telling me i 活该 ah, should change job ah. Why need tolerate anymore??
Seriously speaking...i can't juz quit like that! I need $$ to help support the household...the medicial bills i hv been paying is haiz.....If i can get better pay n jobscope, i dun mind. But looking at the market now...so diificult...
Can't anyone be more understanding. I am juz a peace-loving person and i dun like all these!!That y i prefer to hide my sorrows.......I juz wan everyone to be happy!!

Being too nice but hv no good return aka 好心被雷劈, 自找麻烦！:p

2009-03-31T01:22:00.011+08:00

Just wanna 发点牢骚。。。。

Recently kena a case which initially not done by me. I was
only taking it ( an add-on to the case) last week when i see no one seems to be
taking it up....even the one who is following on it also din take lor?! Then now
it become mine?? Just because i'm senpai?

By telling me now is not the
time to pin point whose fault is it for not following up(?!) and saying d head
is not updated?? Y is it that for me i have to keep her updated then the person
involve in the case no need mah? The one that sent out the email that say to
inform when the case happen again...then what is done? The one that advice the
person to act on the case, dun tell me dunno lor. If really dunno, who ask to do
d trace de? Still can trace less then required somemore...then tell me dunno hv
another?! Who is not taking the case seriously here??

It mayb my fault
for not updating my head (i updated a bigger head??), but well, d same question
will still come back mah! This sound so crappy! Like i ask something extra lor.
Y is she so quiet in the meeting when seeing me involve in the case but from
record, my name is not there at all lor. Am i being too busybody to try to help?
Should hv just inform d person who is following up to act on it!

When
i'm on the conversation wif the sale incharge toking abt how to interpret, i'm
sure its heard. How come when tech is on the line wif me she can hear la but
when i kena case she seem cannot hear leh? Does it means as long as i did not
personally go up to ask for advice or help, i'm not being entertained? Or she is
acting a savior to save the case when its blown?

Is my words so doubtful
and can't be trusted? If i really not taking the case seriously, i would not
have take the initiative to followup... The person doing din even call to
followup. I really wonder why even wanna help speak up for the case. Wah d more
i comment the more stupid i feel.

Sometimes feels that being too nice
will not be good in return...now it seems its my fault for not escalating. We
are not proactive enough....?? Mayb they can try go ask customer who actually
follow-up on the cases n monitor and will contantly go ask if still hv the
issue?! Not just this case but others too....

Sometimes these cases make
me sick & tired. Very funny, a fren call today and asked if still in the
same company. He was commenting y with my potentials i'm still stuck there?!
Haha i'm asking myself the same question:p But haiz, wif economic like that now,
wanna find another place is hard lah.

Now i just wanna get on with what i'm doing, make the best out of it. Rather then make myself so miserable n stress. Luckily Thurs i'll be away on my holiday trip! Yeah, i really wanna hv a break from this country haha:p

Resolution for the year....

2009-02-12T12:25:00.002+08:00

Wah, so fast now already Feb and CNY is over too. It has been abt 3 mths (or more:p) since i last updated this blog:p. Yah, basically i'm lazy + no mood....:pLast year was a pretty up-down year for me. Which eventually resulted to this year's resolution hohoho:)

Resolutions for the year:

Sleep early!
Excercising more often
Be more organzised ( not only @ work but at home too)
Spend more time @ home
Save $$

There are some others but i shall juz focus on the above 1st.
So this year is a new start. No matter what happen last year or previously is already over! No point brooding (i dun think i will remember too:p) and i should just move on with life and find a new direction.

Have been watching a lot of movies, reading books and surfing the internet. Seems like i am also losing touch of the latest anime as i am more into Taiwan Idol drama or Jap/Korean drama nowadays:p

Has been starting my Jap course since January, now is already the 8th lesson. It is more like a refresher course as most of the things taught i do remember haha. Surprisingly i thought i will fall asleep in class coz everytime on the way to class, i was super tired after a day's work, but i didn't:) I pretty enjoy the 2 hrs of class every tues & thurs evening. Hee, and also because i'm not taking it alone ah, dear BJ is taking wif me too:)

Oh, this year's birthday, i'll not be in Singapore! Hee, for the 1st time, i'll be celebrating my bday overseas lol.

Hmm...for how long i have not written a light-hearted blog?? Was last year really so bad:p Well, i just wanna keep myself going and stay happy^o^ That's me:)

Back from a short trip^.^

2008-10-07T23:35:00.008+08:00

Hee, a long waited trip of relaxation was finally fulfilled:p Last Friday went to Genting with Serene's family, Pearl, Miao, Alex n Pieng Nam:) This trip was filled with laughter n joy:) Hope to have another trip with them again haha. When on way back we are already discusing abt another short trip in Dec hohoho:p

I was quite worried before the trip because i was having fever on Tues (luckly wed is hari raya so i get to rest@ home) then down with flu & cough. My mum is also asking if i still wanna go in this state. I was telling myself, i have been waiting for sometime for this trip to break away from work stress, no matter wat, i wanna enjoy myself. And i'm glad i went:) Although i am still sick la:p

Some Pics to share:) I've uploaded on Friendster & Facebook too^o^

Taken when we are still waiting for our check-in

Serene n Family

From Left: Pearl, Lele, Pieng Nam, me n Miao

My food...light n healthy *cough*

After recharging, now is back to work haha. When i was back in office, lady boss asked how's d trip n if i'm feeling better. Quite touched:) Now i'm ready for the next round of challenge coming my way. Its always great to face challenges then plainly pass by the days.

Face the reality!

2008-09-18T01:08:00.005+08:00

I'm not sure if anyone can see or notice that i'm undergoing a tremedous stress period. I dunno that i am so vunerable and is so easily hurt by words. I tend to show that i dun take those to heart...but now i realise...it is rooted deep inside my heart. Thats y most of the time its only when after the thing has happen and after a few days then i reflect and react on it. But most of the time will ended up telling myself nevermind, juz go on n forget about it.
I know that i'm not good at expressing my feeling to anyone as i cant feel the security and also it has been me for so long to bottom up everything. i remember i wrote on a previous entry that i'm trying to open up myself, dun take in everything, learn to let go. I can say...its very hard!
I'm pretty touched yesterday after a chat wif my lady boss which she asked another 2 colleagues to stay on too. She asked if i'm ok and because previously i mentioned that i felt left out in my dept, dunno if there is any improvement or not. Well, i felt that stress make me super sensitive to what others say or act. In turn it impacts on me in a way which i cant see! She actually said i shd not bottom up, if need to tok, can tok to them. "Learn to love yourself" she says. Haha...this was what Sok told me too:) Also not to be so self-centred and take in (should i say absorb) everything as i will burst 1 day eventually.....
Learning to address the stress that i'm having is important. But finding the root cause to this is even more crucial. I dunno if its due to family? Work? Peers? I DON'T KNOW?!
I remembered last week i was meeting the gals. As i was early, so i shop shop around 1st. I was pretty stunned that i felt like an empty soul walking in the crowd! My mind was blank....i was telling them jokingly abt it when i met them.....but dunno if it caught any of them as i was quite shocked myself when i thought abt it again. i am never in this state before, am i ok!!! Its juz like losing my control at work and suddenly felt depressed and helpless, then cried. This happened twice.
Lady boss quoted something like that anything that happened to us is not something we cannot handle, all things happen because it is to be managed and for us to overcome and dealt with. So now i am sitting here typing this entry, reflecting on my happenings and behaviors.
Looking back at my entries....since when did my blog started to sound so full of unhappiness....
Something happen to my Dad recently...his legs are weak and have difficulties walking or standing without much support. I must say i do fear this to happen. i do not know how to handle my emotion on this matter. i know i tend to escape and try not to face the problem and juz let it lie there. But this is something i can't avoid. Mum told me to take leave on friday to help tend the store. I tried toking to mum that since Dad is unwell, and there is no helper to help tend the store, y not close it for a few days then. i can't be always be taking leave if Dad's condition does not improve and i can say it is a long run. Moreover, mum also not in good health. Do you now how much it hurts me when she says i dun care abt them. If i tell them to rest will they listen? Do they care what i said? They will always gimme their 101 reasons. Mum says i dun communicate with her.....seeing her back from work already so tired, of coz i let her rest, read some books n sleep rite. They dun even know i'm in a struggle with my emotions.
There was once i broke out in tears when i was back home for lunch during their off day( they off only bcoz market requires cleaning n governement make them not to open store) on my work day, my mum juz laughed at me say i'm silly. I have been suppressing all this emotion and only reveal to myself when i totally cannot take it anymore by crying. Even crying is in silent.....swallowing most of it....then tell myself, after waking up from sleep, everything still will go on. Life still goes on.....
I can put up a strong front but juz as suddenly, the tears in my eyes juz flows.... am i going out of control? Whats causing all this?? Super bad feeling..........
I dun like people to see thru me as i feel insecure therefore i tend to coverup with my front that i'm ok.....but now i think i'm too weak to even put up the front....is this change a part of opening up myself? In order to go further not only in work but also in life, i know i have to overcome this.
But i dunno how.............................................................................

I Dun Understand!!!

2008-08-08T01:22:00.003+08:00

So frustrated and upset! Writing this to release some anger....
Recently there is a lot of going-ons at work. There is a lot of stress which i have to learn to manage. I think i gonna hit my peak of limit anytime~then BOOM!.
Like sometimes i was accused for not getting my info correct and have been passing last min work to the techs. Please lor, in the 1st place if i know, I'll tell already lor, i dun even noe there is a follow-up of the job or it was only issued last min! The scheduling is not so simple & i can do wonders if i can separate my mind from my programming(my main priority scope at work) and at the same time manage the schedule of the techs + answering calls from customers & technicians & helpdesk asking for schedules! Now d dept also hv to take up trainer job....which means addition responsiblity! I hv been trying very hard to find my balance & sort my priorities!
What we want is solution! If telling me off helps, then pls try to do my job then tell me how its like! I noe everyone is under a lot of stress especially recently there are a lot of projects coming up. But do understand that if i noe what to do, i wont have to ask already! I would have taken my own action & wat for i ask some more? To get more humiliation & sarcasm?
I can get angry also de! If really got me blown up....i dun think I'll feel bad:p i respect ur schedules doesnt mean d tone of ur voice can b so mean lor. Nowadays shortage of manpower i also noe. But customers' request what i can do? Tried to push le but sometimes juz cannot lor. Pls do it urself then! Its not that i everyday smile smile means i hv to take in all the gibberish!!
Hmm...this is gonna sound off-brand but now come to think of it, my manager is right, it time to pass over all the scheduling of job to the tech's sup! Why shd i bother so much! what for get myself so worked up & stress?! I cant cope these much of loads!
I juz dun understand why pple cant say things nicely. juz bcoz u r stress does not mean u hv to b mean to another person to make urself feel better!
Does it mean i slap u le, then after that i tell u I'm sorry. It is ok?! Its rubbish!
Cant anyone understand my position? How hard i'm trying? Some stuff are juz not within my control mah! I also have my emo!
Can't believe i'm writing this & tearing @ the same time.....Crying do help me release some stress. After crying, i'll juz put everything behind & move forward. This mayb unhealthy coz i noe the root problem hv not been solved.....

Out of Control!

2008-07-19T10:25:00.021+08:00

I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt is another step forward.
~Thomas Edison

Opps...this is suppose to be up by July but .....haiz edited so many times:p till now: 3rd of Aug!

Hmmm....so sorry i got some of you so worried about me.... Yup, recently i have been under quite a lot of stress and was burnt out. This post is suppost to go up say 2 weeks ago. But after a long of sorting and thinking, the finalised is this.
Long story to go....

I do not know or understand why i was suddenly crying and felt so alone & isolated :( Usually for me, this usually is very short term. I'll feel emotional, only FEEL like crying. But this time round, I was crying suddenly for continuous 2 days?! The only thing that set me thinking how and why I got into this state is….work stress & human relation…. I feel that i seems to be getting more & more impatient...can snap anytime. I dun like this feeling of losing my self-control. Am i getting too agitated and sensitive with the going-ons ard me?

So news to share, my company is now doing Branding. What is Branding? Branding is the sum total of a company’s identity—from its name and logo to every piece of communication, internal or external—to every encounter every customer or potential customer has with it.

Cheem? Well it’s a great experience for me since I was select to be one of Brand Champions. This made me see some elements in me that can bring about to the others to help them in this Branding exercise. But there is pressure too. On top of me is my group lead, then the manager. But as brand champ, my head is the CEO…….

Like I mentioned, I felt this isolation in my dept… Is it that I’m sensitive? I’m quite weary of this going on. Things have been quite different. I’m not as close to them as before? So many things to question myself...

Also d relationship between sup & me is ...confusing ( to ME!). Sometimes when i'm already very upset abt what was said n done...d next moment when i'm cooler...she changed....wah, i hate this feel man! This is the part that got me really really upset....

After sorting some thots & advice from others...the explanation of her actions seems to suppose to be bringing me to see the other way of doing things. But well, people react differently to serveral gestures & actions i guess. How would u react if someone is giving u a stern face & said something quite commanding which is suppose to mean goodwill to u?! I cant feel the goodwill advice, i cant see the point that is to be brought about!

On 17th & 18th July attended this Problem solving & Decision making course. Its quite an insight for me becoz d trainer did not use the paper materials which states d matters of problem solving. Which actually when in school, all these already taught. it is juz a matter of whether u practise it or not. This trainer make us see the picture clearer through activities. Its quite stimulating and the psycology approach make me understand better. Have done a test to see if i'm a left or right brain. Hmmm, guess wat, i'm a total right brain - the brain that is for emotional & creative thinking. I'm the extreme right, which also means (according to the trainer) i'm full of empathy?!

Oh, this yr my company insync is @ Batam View Resort. Quite nice place and beautiful seaside:). The seafood @ the kelong there is nice too.

The View from the hotel room:)

My Team : VALUE (and we are the Victory team^o^v)

SSC Shines^.^ ( My dept:p)

Can u Spot me:p On Journey back home...

View of the poolside

Hee...its me:p

The whole of Commserv except 4 others joining us on later part of the day

So far so gd for now. Must practise wat sok taught me...gal, thx for the advice not forgetting the rose:p . Really really appreciate it! This is a time to pull myself thru the stressful period. I must believe that i can do it!

Oh, short story to shared:p Before this Insync, i was there for a 2D1N Brand Champ course. Had an encouter in the room...during dinner, my colleague is sharing her experience in on of the hotel in Bangkok. So after dinner, we went back to our room (twin-sharing) to get a shower b4 continuing burning midnight oil. I was having a nice hot shower. When i'm done, the mirror is already fogged. Then, when i look up at the mirror....i saw writings on it! i wasn't wearing my specs then, but my sight is still ok...i was stunned for a couple of mins. I thot to myself...logically speaking...mayb the previous occupant might hv wrote it there. Dun think too much. So i hurried settle myself, put on my glasses and went out. I told my colleague abt it so as she dun panick when she saw it. She asked if the writing is still there i said yup. So the 2 of us went to see...haha...well...its really nothing to worry:p Well, we were a bit late for the meeting wif the rest of the champs eventually. But haha, told them its their fault to hv said those story during dinner...then a bit freaked out when seeing that in d bathroom:p.......Luckily the next room i'm in during insync is better haha:)

June already...

2008-06-14T09:51:00.005+08:00

Hmm...suppose to upload this post on 13/06/08, but was in my draft....till now 20-06-08:p
So many going-ons this month. Starting of this week on Monday, i called home in the afternoon, mum told me that grandma hospitalised as she is been knocked down by car!! I was stunned and worried, for the rest of the day @ work...cant focus. Whole family went to the hospital in the evening. Can see that grandma is still in shock. She had 4 stitches at the back of the headache, some cuts and her blood pressure is high. Feel so sad to see her like that but luckily is nothing too serious. The story is, my aunt wants to bring her son & grandma out for lunch. When they are walking pass the carpark, this damn car is reversing to park. My grandma was walking behind my aunt. The car stopped when the driver saw my aunt on the left side, but my grandma was already shocked and fell down. If the driver was a little more reckless...my grandma's injury might be more serious. Thank god she is ok now^.^

Last weekend, manage to hv a hearty chat wif qing over msn. Hee, so long din hear her vocie le^.^ Qing, its really a good chat and catch up haha^^ hope to do it more offten:p

Recently the company is starting on Branding and a few of the staff are selected as brand champions. I'm one of them...which means, more stuff to do le. The 1st is a brand champion workshop in Batam from 26th June-27th June. And most probably we will have to plan for this year's Insync (4th-6th July) Wah, less then a week leh, how to plan?!

Hope this new activity can gain more valuable experience which so far i think is really essential and eye-opening.

This week watched 2 movies: Shaolin Girl and The Incredible Hulk. Quite nice n enjoyable:) Now looking forward to watching Don't mess with the Zohan^o^

Movies ^o^

2008-06-01T04:33:00.003+08:00

Writing this after a midnite movie out wif the gals except for Huah who not able to make it. We watch Sex and the City^.^ Quite a nice one to humor my day. Maybe i can start to watch the series as i only on/off watched the series previously :) What i like about the movie, is the friendship they have. We have a short chat and drink near my place @ a prata shop b4 going home.
Also have watch The Chronicles Of Narnia-Prince Caspian earlier this week. There is 1 song (The Call) in the movie which i like and have put up on my "OnSong" column.
Another movie song which i have already put up is "Sunny Day" from the movie: Accuracy of Death aka Sweet Rain~ 死神の精度. This movie is interesting. A pharse that the shinigami ask: "How do you think of Death? ~Death is nothing special. But how to live your life is important"
Really sets me thinking.....Mayb i shall get the novel to read:)
These 2 songs are soothing and quite meaningful, brings me memories and thoughts.
Was reading my previous blogs, seems like life really past real fast. From 2005 entries till now... My early entries were still of more joy, nowadays ones are so much more emotional. A fren was saying her fren read my blog and asked me to cheer up and dun feel so emo haha. Thx Ya, I'll try hard^.^
Wat is going on in my life? Everyone is moving on and i seems to be still in my own world and well...can feel that I'm in a fix. I dunno what i can do*sob+ARGH!!!!* Coz I'm confused myself. Just wanna let out a loud scream and cry. Am i getting more and more self-centered that its only abt myself? When reading the early entries...have a lot like meeting huah, sok, qing etc so much more often...Now it seems is going a distance...not to say qing as she is away from s'pore.
Is it due to work or myself? I know on my part i also din do enough. But i dunno where to start....*sob*;( It really pains me and i do feel hurt at times. Am i geting sensitive?
I might be avoiding as I'm afraid to face it. I'm frail....... *sigh...sob*

Coming & Going....

2008-05-17T10:31:00.004+08:00

It is our choices that shows what we truly are, far more than our abilities..
~J.K Rowling

When come across this quote, i find it is quite true. i find that it does applies to me, coz i choose to show certain sides of me to certain people:p
To me, i find that exposing too much of myself makes me feel insecure. Mayb is becoz i have already been used to bottling up my feelings and thots for too long that to me, its a protection.
Have been feeling pretty low lately...some stuff happened and also sudden sadness (always feel like crying..??), dunno how to explain:p
Some of my buddy colleagues r leaving *sob* but also glad for them as they are gonna seek better prospects elsewhere. Jia you^^
Come to think of it, i have been here for 3+ yrs. Hmm...can't believe i have worked here for so long. Like Gayle always asked when she comes back for her holiday: u still working in the same company? haha...it seems like i dun have a very stable image of maintaining my job:p But the yrs i'm here...wat makes me stay...i think is the responsibility of the project(Synergy) i'm put to do ba. I dun wanna leave when in my hand i still have this responsiblity. I dun really feel attached to the company but the people here are quite good to me. i do enjoy working with them but seeing people coming in going...for the pass 3 yrs...abt 20+ pple leh. Sometimes i really wonder how can i stay on like that?! Previously when i was in my 1st company, wat makes me leave is partly also the colleagues' resignation. The morale is not there. The company is not doing enough to keep able people! Recent chat with a fren..."At your age you still have not hit more then 2k...shouldn't you be considering better advancement" i find it quite true but i feel like i'm already in my comfort zone..i not working for the sack of working..more like passing my day. Now worse, wanna leave also gotta wait...got bonded for 3 mths n resignation notice is 2mth...so in order for me to go...i still hv to survive another half a yr or so...which is almost yr end le!!!!!
How....anyone can enlighten me....i sort of dunno where my path is le. Or should i say that i hv not been seriously thinking abt it?!

Am i not doing enough????

2008-04-15T01:53:00.004+08:00

Finally gonna write something here, it has been quite a while that i wanted to start writing, but well..the beginning of the year really turns me off quite a bit or should i say quite a fair bit haha. Well...as usually...it is in the past already.
Sudden thots flowing in my mind recently..which seens weighing too much on me.. How much do i understand myself and have i let others understand me???? Have i always been seen as able to laugh things off even in difficult times? Am i always portraying myself as a person of no worries?! Is it wrong to want to see everyone happy when @ outings? Is it stupid to conceal my thoughts and give myself no room to breath? Is it wrong to not bother others with your problems when u know that they are troubled or busy too? Am i being too positive and even to the extend of insensitive?!
I'm sorry if my insensitivity have hurt any of you....
All these questions are in me and i have not been facing it as each day passed. I know that i have a tendency to avoid situations. (I should really thank my boss. Every since i joined this company, i experienced a lot of organising and self-development. I started to see my weakness and recognising them thus working on them to improve myself.) In order to overcome them also takes time. Whether people are seeing it or not, i'm trying. You know, if i get negative response for 2-3 times...i'll shut off myself. How would one feel if you are rejected and dejected? I can say i'm not as strong as i may look ok! How much sorrow i have been bottling up, only i know. if you say its me who have not been taking the initiative to start the ball rolling, then have you thot of how weary i am to all this already?
Do anyone understand how insecure i feel? It takes me a long time to ponder on all this questions and eventually blogging it up. I admit i do not have the courage to speak up but i'm pushing myself to do so.
Recently have not been feeling too well...in terms of work and health. Its not that i wanna keep everything to myself but its my inner-self that have been keeping for so long ah! That results in don't know how to deal with it when ask to try speak up and be more initiative! Its not that I'm not trying...I'm trying very hard to share my problems.
Sometimes it is really depressing at work and i would choose to draw myself away and do other stuff to distract myself like playing game or sleeping. There is a period of time that when i got home from work, i'll skip my meal and sleep. My mind is so mentally drained but i know that if i dun catch this nap, i'll make myself even more tired into the nite till 3+ to make myself really super tired then sleep, like now. I tried sleeping early like 1am...but tossing and turning keeps my brain even more active, and smetimes i'll just cry until i fall asleep. That's y most of the time i'll just get up and do some reading or surfing till i cannot take it. Its not that i wanna stay up so late, but its that i juz cant sleep... is it stress or my subconscious? Miraculously when i was in japan, i can sleep ard 12+ s'pore time. Was it becoz of the weather and stress lvl?
Ever since i got more responsibility at work and the limitation i can do, really drained my everyday. I know its a challenge but I started to hate organising because i was so tired of scheduling. So when it comes to meet-outs, i'll not wanna plan it. But well...who can understand how i feel and what i face?
I'm blessed in the sense that my manager is quite concern and i'm able to speak up and share my problems with her. One thing she is right about: Mental stress is more torturing then physical..
Now my mind is blank and tired. Who can spare me of this mental stress. The job itself is ok, but dealing with people is straining. Have been doing some read-ups on people management, hope some light will come into the picture. Company is starting on branding, i'm quite looking forward to it^^ Hope to see gradual change.
Going to sleep le..........gonna be one more day then to weekend!!!!

The meaning of Life

2007-12-13T14:03:00.000+08:00

Quote of the month:
The meaning of Life is to give life meaning.
-Ken Hudgins

I fully agree with the above qoute. But sometimes the definition is vague. How can i express what life is. I can't even see where my life is going to now! Dunno if its my emo again or what, i start to ponder and get emotional. Have i been suppressing myself lately again? I dunno. To express myself in this form is quite hmm...unusual. Juz have a sudden urge to express my thots somewhere. Who ever reading this, dun worry abt me haha:p Think i once in a while will be like this.

Like i applied for UOW's course and has been accepted, but in the end i gave up. Why so? Firstly, finance; second and most importantly, i'm not prepared at all! i know i should not delay anymore, but why am i spending so much money on it when i dun have the heart to study?! Currently undergoing CCNA certification exam, have to pass it before May. Now i juz wanna concentrate on this.

There is so much to sort out in my life plan. For instance, the priority to the decisions made etc. Frankly speaking, i see my goals, but i'm not stepping out. I cant sort my priorities. My mind is telling me i have to, but in realtime, i cant do it.

Sometimes i would rather enclose myself, keep everything to myself than to share out my feelings and thots. Suppressing and accumulate would get me no where but i need a burst out moment to release all this emotion.

Everyday passing is meaningless nowadays. i can do stuff but i dunno if they do register in my brain. Find that i'm getting more and more into pretendence. I dunno what pressure i'm having, dunno what else i can do, can i juz stone????!!!!

Swirling Nov...

2007-11-20T12:56:00.000+08:00

Quote of the month:

The invariable Mark Of Wisdom is to see the miraculous in the common.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Mood not very good recently. Maybe is due to pressure at work....
Hmm...have not been updating lately. Dunno is due to no mood or what. Haha...starting to get my mind to think wild again...or am i getting sentimental?? Okie...i seems to be getting confused of what i'm writing:p
Okie, so happening going on ard me:
1. Have an enjoyable trip to Bangkok with some of my ITE frens from 8-11 Nov^.^ ~ load up the pics link on Facebook but if anyone wanna view, let me know coz think have password:p. I'm still trying to do up a slide show haha:p
2. Mental stress for new responsiblity @ work - Challenging but mental straining too.

For the other months...haha due to bad memories...i dun have much to comment on. Like u guys have known, my memories super cannot make it sometimes:p

Okie, so my Bangkok trip is fun. Have never thought that i will go travelling with Pearl, Kym, Winson aka Hamster & Alex. A pity that Serene not able to join us. Went ard visiting temples and shopping grounds. Really did quite a lot of walking:) The 4 days there seems so short. Hope to be able to go again soon^.^ Would post up the pics here soon :)

Haiz...dunno if its due to stress or what, can feel the pressure building up in me....
Typing this @work. Need to get my mind distracted sometimes, so dun mind me:p

Lost in time....

2007-10-04T13:25:00.000+08:00

Quote of the month:

Keep you Face to the Sunshine and You'll never see the shadow.

-Helen Keller

oH...Dear me, a month passed so fast and Sept has ended le..
Hmm... hv not been writing haha:p This post suppose to be up last mth
but well...as i'm typing this with my spare time at work so each time i
save then got busy and will forget abtthis entry:p
Finally Synergy is over!! But now the worries is CCNA...have to complete
it by end of Oct due to the change in syllabus *sob*...Basically, i have no
confidence & have not really study it throughly yet! OMG....how....6th Oct
gonna take the Mock exam.*shake head*

Okie, enough of the worrying:p just wanna grumble a bit haha.
So, what have i done between this Aug to Sept...
a. went Jap. Summer Fest
b. Po's Big Day(the Wedding^o^)
c. Synergy

Congrats Po, u r offically Mrs. Huang now haha:p.

The day after Po's wedding is the company event: Synergy.
So tiring. Seems to have many stuff cope up, but well, the committee is
great. Each barrier are solved, and hee, no panics:) The event ended
successfully. After that, is a celebration@ St. James (Movida). As usual,
is the dancing n drinking. Went home ard 1.30am as need to work the
next day.
Din go to sleep directly after bathing but stayed on to do some surfing,
till my eyes are too tired to be open haha, so went to bed. Morning
almost late for work coz ard 8am then wake up:p But lucky, Saturday bus
is ok(not as crowded), so reach juz in time.

Some changes might be going on in work..i am to take over distribution
of job to technician from my sup. for abt 2 mths as she will be on project
assignment. Well, it also means, that i have to be really independent
and learn not to seek help from her. So i have to brace myself up for this
challenge. I know i lack the confidence, and now i need to have it to get
my job done. Good challenge i can say, somehow, i'm looking forward
to it^.^

Oh, sup. going to Osaka, was notified a day b4, next day fly off le.
Wah..meaning i'm to take over as from today le. But well, able to go
Japan is already good enough haha. Thot in Oct then i'll start offically
taking over the job distribution, now starting 1st day(26/09/07). Feeling a
bit busy n confused :p, but just have to brace myself up then.

Constant Vigilant Ya!

Awesome Aug!!!

2007-08-13T21:36:00.001+08:00

Quote of the Month:

Learn to Think like a Winner.

Think POSITIVE and visualize your STRENGTHS

-Vic Braden

Heehee, those who have read another blog of mine, might find what i write here the same coz i basically juz cut and paste:p This is, i can say, the longest blog i have ever written ba. So many thots have been flowing in me ever since this yr's Insync....
Hmm...nowadays i tried updating my own blog every month once coz always kena nagged :p I remebered last year i practically have not update it for almost half a year! But, now..haha, changing and trying to be constant. Can't believe i'm starting to blog now, like last year, i took 2 weeks after the trip to start bloggin down my thots! Whoever is reading, so sorry, i wrote some words in short-form:p

Some pics to share:)

Create a Free Slideshow

This year's Insyc, was a total mystery to all. Dad was disapproving but well haha, got mum to say yes:p I'm select to be one of the leaders of our group. This was quite a challenge to me. Felt stress but excited when got this task. As clues of the trip was disclose to us bit by bit, we were trying to piece out what and where we might be heading to but still….guessing…. Instructions was told to pack light…we got the message but, when started packing, it juz got heavier (mine was super heavy commented by others:p). We were asked to do up a fairytale musical (Beast and the Beast was selected by us) to be performed during Insync. It was ages ago when I ever did a skit (although also fairytale but I no need perform:p). Scripting was headache. My brain doesn't trigger any thots of how to go abt the story. But well, like b4, my ideas started to float in at 1am+:p. Took me abt 2 hrs to write it. I was worried because I'm afraid my members might not like the whole plot, but I did my best. When disclose to them, I'm happy to see them very spontaneously responed. This is some experience and sensation I have long forgotten since schools days.

Finally, the start of day 1: Wah, have a super heavy bag! Bro was at home. B4 I left, I heard him called mum and told her to get Dad to pick me up coz my bag is too bulky…soooo touch!!! Then mum called to ask if I'm ready. When ready, dad came and we left for office (although is a 5 min car jorney, it means a lot to me haha) So start of the day, still mysterious as we were to get instructions one by one. Finally, the 1st task: Amazing Race like game in Singapore. This was fun but without burden would be better:p The station games are fun as some are those that most of us have not played b4, Upon knowing our final destination: Harbour Front, more or less guessed from there that we are going to take a boat to somewhere...Still not feeling secure coz no confirmation was said, its purely our guessing. When everyone assembled and we were told that we are going to Batam Holiday Inn, i was quite excited. Upon arrival at Holiday Inn, the 1st thot is....this place is so superb! The scenery and the room are not something that i have expected haha:p So have a quick shower & went down for dinner then had debrief for the leaders by Keith. I told Kasma, Pauline and Anthony to help coordinate get the rest of the members to go to the gals' room for their debrief (which happen to be our Gwee who is in our grp) and may start rehearsal of the skit if they can. I was so..so...so touched when i open the door to see the whole lot rehearsing! U guys desevres a round of applauses *claps..*Then we have a round or 2 of rehearsal again till ard 12+am then we were off for the nite. I was then starting to edit the songs as they commented its too long and dragging. Took me ~2 hrs to figure and get everything out nicely. Sometimes i think i'm a bit carried away. Then start a bit of the blog on MSWord..Finally...i was too exhausted, so decided to turn in. Din really sleep well but still ok.(~2:45am S'pore Time)

Wah….now Day 2…din have much time to write this blog! When I was rearranging this and finally set n going to bed is already 4+am(S’pore time)!!! This 2 days had set me thinking a lot about myself. I seriously can see I really lack of the firmness that I can see in others. Sometimes being too nice is not good, that I know, but I think this I can change. Oh...as on day 1 travelling ard to get clues or tools for our next move, we saw the tools tat we are getting, so was suspecting might build sandcastle or something. I share wif with some of them that me and my buddies did a mermaid in Sentosa earlier this yr. Then they incorprate this idea for our activity :) Sometimes seeing ur comments and ideas being put to use is of quite a good feeling, the feeling of being accepted. My organzing skills I think also shaky as I tend to give in to others:p This is what i feel when playing the water polo game. I was totally demoralised by the result and was lost when halfway through the game, we have to get replacements. Unable to think a step further does matters. So eventually, we lost. Though demoralised, they played well and enjoyed. I was thinking to myself, when we did the board balancing, we did it pretty well. This is the game where all are having their own views but some are those that i think are not workable and they we so firm that their ideas could work. I know i was getting a bit agitaed so i tried to keep cool. I can feel my tone changed and spoke louder and more determined(:p) to make sure others got my message, that i only wanna hear a person giving out instructions. And we did it, getting the best timing among the other groups. So it was like a time in heaven when u win, and dropped to earth when you lose... So in order not to have this mood affecting me, i went around talking with others and helping take pics, if not i think i'll be very depressed. Lucky that my nature is the bad things goes away fast haha:p Throughout this whole event, i experience the kind of leadership and responsibility i have long forgotten ever since i left ITE. This feeling is so much stronger compared to last year's chairing of Synergy. I know that i lack of the confidence and firmness. Well, I see my weakness, I will try to overcome and improve….without being agitated:p This year's Insync sets a lot of thots in me...Lots of reflections to be done from time to time. I learnt a lot from others and see more of myself. Feeling in me...a change might be on the way hahaha:p
Constant Vigilant!

Busy July...

2007-07-16T17:11:00.000+08:00

Quote of the Month:

Don't go through Life,Grow through Life.

-Eric Butterworth

Hee, better start writing my blog early, if not i'll drag another month le:p (This blog i started writing on 01-07-07 but till now then posted:p)Hmm...every month putting up a quote in the hope of getting myself inspired. So far so good haha.
Oh...my company Insync is gonna be in 1st week of Aug..heard this is another tough one.
Dates taken up for next few company events:
Synergy’07 (Sin) – Fri, 21 Sept 2007
Family Day’07 – 20 Oct. 2007
D&D ’07 – Sat, 22 Dec 2007

This year, still in Synergy team. This time round, i'm the financial controller. This year's theme is about food. Now brainstorming to give the event a name or slogan...plus also the venue. Initial idea is to have a cooking competition. Hmm..luckily this month is Food Festival haha, got lots of samples can see. Still...a bit stress up by it..And also, the Synergy is on 21!!!, a day after Po's wedding. Gonna be even more tiring...haiz...
Okie, enough office business:p Hmm...still have not have a chance to watch Transformers yet..some commented its good some say waste of time. Nevertheless, i shall see for myself:)
Oh, Harry Potter finally showing and the last book is gonna be out on the 21st!!! Can't wait to read the last book ^O^ And next week is the movie: Order of the Phoenix. Anyone wanna join me?? The story is finally coming to an End...a bit sad...
11/07/07:Firstly, my apologies to dear Sok.Got tickets to Harry Potter's Gala Premiere(10-07-07) ^.^ But the whole thing was quite upside down.... Got miscommunication wif Sok. Gal, me really really very guilty and sorry *sob* Gomen ne!!!She tot the screening was at AMK Hub, which actually we arranged to watch on Thurs instead of yesterday. Then i realise i din mention to her that its in Orchard and its a Premiere;( The screening is at Lido (Orchard). We got tix for theatre 1 but on the way, someone swop tix wif us as she hv quite a few at hand and she hv better seats. A bit regrad as its in a seperate theatre and the one we are in does not have the goody bag:( The seats are good but well...we missed half an hr of the show as the timing is at 845pm!!! This is due to my previous tix is at 915pm, so we tot all the same timing:( My fren who got us the tix hv the goody bag. Goody bag has very nice print of harry potter's cast, inside: 4 small badges (include D.A), a cake, a poster and a hologram notebook. He was telling me, he'll give me the goody bag.........as X'mas present *faint*!!!!Nevertheless, the movie was quite good except that i find the ending was being rushed thru'. Some details are not shown...spot for urselves for those who r gonna to watch it soon:)

2007-06-29T16:12:00.000+08:00

Success is simple.
Do what's right, the right way,at the right time.
- Arnold Glascow

Yo, its coming to an end of another month and i have yet to post up any blog:p So here i am to blog haha:pHmm...its not that i dun wanna blog, but i dunno to blog abt what ?! *sob*
Argh, these few days have been very busy and tired. Can feel the stress building uPppPPP.... There are so much to brainstorm which sometimes i find i might not be able to cope...even if i asked...i feel stupid :( What is the point of asking when the reply is something i dun understand and can even feel the impatience there?! Hmmm...wondering if i'm feeling emotional again....
I can feel that i might be running out of patience....dunno how to describe this feeling....
Oh, today the Synergy committee is out. As usual, i'm in the committee again but well, i hope i can really be juz d advisor haha:p
Time in life is so ever changing. Everyone have to choose a path to move on.....

Moving Forward...

2007-05-12T10:08:00.000+08:00

Okie, this is suppose to be last mth's post but well:p

Quote of the month:

Planning for happiness is rarely successful, Happiness just happens.

Robert Half

Why is every month passing by so quickly. This month have quite a lot of going-ons. Like i got myself bonded for 3mths for taking CCNA course; juz signed an agreement/contract that the office come up with... Initially, i hesitated to sign when 1st seen the contract as i dun really agree with the terms, but well, the management amened the clause again, then was said if not signed, will automatically be treated as a resignation noticification for a month. Tell me what choice i have!!!

Rite above was meant for May entry.....

Now in the month of June....another week more the CCNA course will be over! The next streeful thing will be the exam...

Recently have been on a bus journey(abt half an hr) n my thots starts flooding into me...made me think of what am i looking for in my life:( I know this might be quite a common thing in my blog as i always blog that i'm aimless. Like a saw a fren's msn nick: "A goal without action is just a wish" How very true is that. I'm stagnent at a point now, not moving anywhere. I dun like this feeling.....
Can someone knock some sense into me?!

April already....updates..

2007-04-10T21:12:00.000+08:00

Quote of the month:

Knowledge comes, but Wisdom stays.

-Alfred Lord Tennyson

Its a brand new month! Hee, this mth seems to hv a lot to talk abt but well...dun think is convenient to tell here haha:p Started a new blog^.^ I dun think i'll release d addr, gonna make it my personal online diary:p If i figure out how d sercurity works then mayb heehee:p
Finally moved in to the new office. Now can save a lot of busfare as can walk home heehee :) Dun ask me walk to work...morning bathe then walk to work very hot *sweatdrops*Now can be home ard 6pm, so have plenty of time:) Find that the nearer to home, after work wont hv the mood to go out coz home is so near :p
Woh, time is going so fast, after Net's ROM, we see another blissful couple^.^ Congrats! Actually tat day wanna where skirt...but well...my leg kena cut by my bro's mattress' broke spring:( Nvm, there are Po & sok's wedding to go still:p
Now trying to reframe from MJ:p Weekends i seldom go out...mostly juz stay home read books, surf net, sleep...feels like long time nv hv a gd rest leh:p Felt so relaxed. If not my shoulder pain will come back...dun wanna keep taking medicine...pill too hard to swallow *sob*
Nowadays hang out at various KBox outlets haha...coz most of the time(recently) meet out with the ITE mates usually would end up in a ktv seesion (altho previously planned for a movie:p)
This year's bday quite fun haha. On eve of bday, went out for movie, dinner, then to East coast Park hang out till 2+ am. By the time i reach home is abt 4+am liao. i did not apply leave for the next day:p So slept for 2-3 hrs then go work. D day suppose to be quite happy...but then ......Nevertheless, at night went out for dinner @ Kushinbo in Suntec^.^ Free treat haha so happily eating:)
This yr's bday wish: Hope to get my driving licence soon!!!!
Now life is back to getting busy @ work n most prob on CCNA certification course soon...

To be continued....

Quote of the Month(March):

2007-03-03T11:09:00.000+08:00

Hee, back to blogging. Trying out this new switch which blogspot recommended....
From last month till now nothing much happening except that festive season is here. Happy Lunar new Year, everyone get lots of ang baos?
Mind quite blank now, juz wanna share a quote with everyone....

There is a calmness to a life lived in gratitude, a quite joy.

-Ralph H.Blum

Quote of the month....

2007-02-06T13:18:00.000+08:00

At the center of your being you have the answer; You know who you are and you know what you want

Lao Tzu

Looking back....

2007-01-27T11:05:00.000+08:00

Yo^.^ Happy 2007 everyone. Know i have not been updating my blog for super long time:p Most of the time is no mood to write lah:p
The whole of last year have so many going-ons, especially the later half. Hee, guess that’s the part which i din blog ba*.* As known to most of you, 2nd half of the yr, my office always have lots of events going on.
Events:
17 Aug: Insync @ Bintan Loola
22 Sept: Synergy @ Asian Civilization Museum
18 Oct: Thailand Insync (Bangkok & Chiang Mai)
2 Dec: D&D 06

Hee, in between there are stuff like taking golf course, short trips to Genting, Family Day @ Science Center which i cant make it etc.
Okie, enough of office stuff, if not i'll be hantump for always talking abt office going-ons haha.
The CG group also have quite frequent gatherings like dinner and updates like hee, 2 are gonna get married soon:) Congrats! Huah is back from her studies and she did pretty well. Well done; Qing gave us a surprise by popping up at Sok's place during X'mas cum New yr gathering whereby we are suppose to have arrange to have a web conference with her online!!! She really caught us in surprise haha, well, its her haha:p
The poly grp have a few gatherings when Gayle came back to S'pore. Been out more often with BJ. She now in the midst of looking for a job, hope she get her desired job soon^o^v
The xmy grp, as usual, frequent MJ session haha. Nowadays not only MJ with them but with my colleagues too:p XMY grp is MJ overnight grp hohoho...Well, i know it’s not good for health and also it’s not a very good lifestyle, but...haiz....
Hmm...This 2007, 3 buddies getting married, Net ROM in April, Po wedding in Sept, and Sok wedding in Dec (finally :p). Gals, congrats^o^
Hee, seems like writing long story. This year is a year of decision....like studies...have been dragging for sometime but well, at least I’m working towards it :p Most prob will be taking SIM's course ba....Have to start sorting my choice..plan to go for the Oct in-take...
Sometimes cant understand myself, my life and my future.

Thoughts

2006-05-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

Everyday is drifting pass so fast...year after year...life seems so blank:p
Have been thinking over a lot of stuff lately. I am not a person who can manage my own life!! I'm stll not as independent as i think i am. My mum still hv to worry for me for lots of stuff.Sometimes i really wonder how i can be a filial daughter.
Although i can always lend a listening ear to my frens, giving them advise etc, but...hmm...i dun think i'm being truthful enough to them as i cant bring myself to tell them my trouble moments....The truth is, i'll also keep things to myself. My thoughs, feelings etc...i juz cant voice them out. Minna, gomen ne.
After my past relationship, d one thing i learnt, to voice out my tots. I'm learning still. If one day i really burst out everything...i think tats the time i have reach my limit.
I know, my dear frens are always there for me when i needed them. Arigato minna^o^
Come to think of it...i seems to be always putting up a front in front of others. What it happening to my true self? Am i being me??The urge of crying has been stirring in me again, but i juz cant cry out. Need something to trigger:p
Juz need a space to write out these tots...............

Taihen Desu ne.......

2006-05-04T12:36:00.000+08:00

Hmm...dunno y nowadays very sian:( Help!!!! need something to spice up my life;(
Have a lot of going-ons in the office, but well, life still going on....
Gotta plan my leave now...got 4 1/2 days to clear. Kenji they all intend to have chalet @ d end of this month...but well, drag till now still haven book...dunno eventually will have or not.
Now is lunch hr, waiting for my food to come...dun wanna sit at my desk do nothing, so decide to blog haha.
Come to think of it, i also haven blog for sometime too liao:p
Mum has been asking me, do i still considering go study or not. Dunno how to reply... Now my bro in poly. See him study until very stress i also scare...
Now mind have lots of thots floating, but do not know how to put in words *sob*
Need a break from everything here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Flu again....

2006-04-15T00:57:00.000+08:00

Its has been days or months since i last blog ba:p hee, well, lazy again lah. Gomen.
Have been quite hectic @ work recently. Come to think of work...i've been working for a yr in the company liao wor.
Have been having quite a few activities with colleagues like going ktv, play badminton, mahjong:p and recently went Genting wif a few of them too.
On last Fri(7th Apr ba), met Janet & Sok for dinner @ a 24 hr HK Cha Chan Ting near Kovan. The food is so tempting that we have to control ourselves from ordering too much:p But cant join the gals for long as hv to go home pack bag for my Genting trip. The trip is to start @ 3am. So my colleague suggested we meet ard 11pm to go his place have a rd of mahjong b4 leaving haha:p.
It has been quite an experience since its my 1st time to Genting^o^ Its has been 2 yrs since i last went to Malaysia liao. The sian part is that i have to work the next day after coming back on sunday. Quite happening trip hee, but well, i'm down wif flu & sore throat right now, so dun have much thing floating in my head to write:p Will update soon of the details:) Ciao.

Confused Mind...

2006-02-24T19:36:00.000+08:00

Have been passing the days like zombie...everyday is so dry.

Oh, saw huah's Johari Windows, so created one for myself, Do go see and do^.^ http://kevan.org/johari?name=Dyane_Lee

Huah, thx very much for responding after reading the blog. Very touched wor;p

I've applied for NTU's course, trying to see if can enter only:p

Wah....mind in total confusion...dunno wat i'm thinking liao...like there is a lot to think but...i'm not thinking....*sob* wat to do.............................

Bloging in office Pt2:

2006-02-16T22:02:00.000+08:00

15th Feb:
Hee, today only wed and i am feeling very bored liao. Last nite online have a chat wif galye, sl & BJ. Long time din have such chatting seesion over msn. Got lots of pics to see too from gayle.
Janet also online yesterday. She going to Bangkok for holiday today. Poor gal, eve of trip still have to work OT somemore Valentine.
Oh yah, Happy Belated Valentine’sDay :p

16th Feb:
Emailed qing & huah yesterday. Qing replied and sends her regards to u gals^o^
From her email: "Once I am online, I will definitely establish contact with everybody. In the meantime, please send my regards to all the girls. Missing u all already. Take care!"
Recently has been browsing thru all the courses that NUS & NTU are offering. Left with 2 choices, CE or EEE. I'm more interested in CE, but the amt of programming courses seems too overwhelming for me;( Think I better really sit down & think of what I wanna study haha:p The course offered by Ngee Ann- Adelaide seems quite ok and its part-time also. What I see in this is becoz it's a direct last yr course. Have been discussing abt the courses over msn wif some frens, well, all have different views. This is quite a difficult issue, I always have this thot of juz putting this behind and get on wif life. Should I continue to hold back my study plans? Well, do have some good factors if I do so, save more $$ mah:p Really need a lot of advice on this study issue:p So whoever you are, do enlighten me and give me a way….
Something is amiss these days. Have been trying to find a meaning in life…seems so pointless each day ;p *sob* What's going on?! Have this chong dong of crying haha….getting emotional again. Keep wanting to make myself cry :p This happens once in a while lah, think is my form of distressing ba.
Recently not much anime to catch. Besides the usually Naruto and Bleach anime and manga, nothing new liao. SadL Hmm…now waiting for POT to be back. This time as OVA of the national competition.
Have been watching lots of Hong Kong drama serial like Always Ready Starred Ekin. Quite entertaining haha:p Another one I’m now still watching is hmm…name too long dun really remember. Its abt this hairstylist and his family plus relationship. Same old typical storyline, but still, quite heart-warming.
Hmm…mum called me just after my lunch, when on way back to office. She is telling me, my aunt tells her that this morning I went out with 2 gals…this is so eerie. When I came out from my house this morning, she still in her room sleeping wor. Who she saw?! Starting to give me the creeps…*o*lllll Mum is asking if I eaten, at work or what…hmm…weird….i told mum, mayb she should go to a medium and ask if our house have any "thingy" hanging ard:p

Something to start with....

2006-02-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

End of Lunar New Year liao...this post is suppose to be up yesterday but hee, too tired as got home quite late & i no mood to go change the blog haha:p The content was written yesterday in office:p Have some free time after clearing some programming case, i wrote this post, if not when at home, i dun even know if i will be writing haha.

Hmm....seems like its time to revamp my blog site haha...din really have the mood to do so actually, but well, seeing this same layout for so long also quite sian:p Have been searching for nice layout but in vain : (
Havent been blogging since last month. U all know lah:p lazy me lor.
Anything happening going on for me throughout this missing blogging days? Well...sad to say nothing much happening in my life*sob*
The most happening event...hmm... Qing and huah's departure to further their studies in Australia ba. Qing's departure was brought forward and as usual, gave us a surprise notification lor. Actually have a lot to write on that day she left...all those "gan yan" as she is gonna left us for 2 straight years wor, but well...L.A.Z.Y. :p
Have a dinner outing wif huah and the rest of the group @ Prego & bakerzin. Some pics taken by sok is found on this link ^o^
Huah's sending-off was very re nao. Most of her frens are there and her family too. Hope this 2 gals stay healthy and cherry always^.^
Oh, how everyone's lunar new year? Mine was filled by lots of mahjong sessions haha:p I know not good lah, but really got nothing else to do. Sad ah, new year have nothing better to do:p
I have been playing mahjong every nite starting from 27th to 30th Jan..play till morning.....Well...for new year only will be like that, other days wont play tat long ^o^ Hmm...this lunar new year really have nothing to write abt ah....
Yesterday met BJ go shop shop. Then well...din really manage to get the stuff we are suppose to get :p Then we went to Esplanade there see if can catch fireworks. Ha, at first we thot the fireworks over already bcoz its 9plus pm liao, then there is this announcement that says the firework display is gonna start in 3 mins. Wor, fantastic display^o^ Too bad, only capture in pic, cant video take( phone not enough memory) :(
I'm pre-blogging in office on this boring Saturday. If not i go home no mood to write again haha:p For your information, i have not change my job yet, still in the same telecommunication field. Time pass very fast, working here for almost a year soon ah. Heard from BJ, Gayle is asking if i'm still working in the same company...haha Gayle, i am:p
My mind have a lot of stuff right now, but dunno wat to write here:(
Planning to register for Uni, closing date on 21st. Hee, try to see if can get into any course ba. But then, its just trying to apply. If got the placement, i dun think will go for it also...full time wor, another factor...$$ lor. Bro gonna start schooling in Poly soon...so well...might have to fork $$ to his education fee( mum said)...see how ba. My study plan might have to drag then.
Have been wanting to go on holiday for quite sometime. Discussing wif BJ to go Taipei in May, but dunno can or not...yet to be confirm:p Hee, any other people interested to join us?
Wah, my shoulder pain is back. Now can feel my neck getting stiff and shoulder numb....too cold or strain too much again hee...nv know. This pain come n go...
Come to think of my life...i have nv come to think and plan what i am gonna do ;( Everyday is passing and i have nothing much to achieve! Think i'm panicking...all this 25 plus years what have i been doing? Days are slipping and no plans in L.I.F.E!!!!!! Everyday is work then home or work, meet frens for dinner etc then home. Someone enlighten me please..................................*sob sob*

Its A Brand New Year....

2006-01-05T13:10:00.000+08:00

Happy 2006^.^
Back to blog again heehee.
Last mth 18th dec was Pieng Nam & Serene's birthday. We have a gathering at AMK Kbox^o^ Meet out wif those long lost contact pple haha. Its great to see Kok Peng again as after he graduated, practically no contact at all liao, except to hear his news from serene lah. Have a very enjoyable nite. Atho its a sunday, we still sing till 3am then go back:p d next day still a working day hohoho
In d end i fall sick haha.
This year's X'mas n New Year quite boring, not much stuff to do or go out:p
Spend a lot of $$ so now quite broke ....
This 2006, is getting more lonely *sob* Qing & Huah abroad for studies. There goes my email, dinner n ktv kakhis;( Nevertheless, wish them all the best^o^
Now lunch time in the office, freezing cold:p sitting here eating bread n typing blog....see how boring i'm getting;(
hee, i shall end here, will update some pics soon:)

Countdown to X'mas^.^

2005-12-21T00:53:00.000+08:00

Woh, X'mas is drawing nearer & nearer! Lots of presents haven buy!!!! Just now went Orchard shopping wif hua n qing. Bought a few presents, but still not enough...haiz...tmr gonna shop again at bugis....

Was checking my mails earlier n saw this link Po sent: http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Quite interesting and true....

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Hmm...so what do you think? Is this really true abt me? Haha i find it quite true...sometimes these quizzes are quite scary:p

Lost....

2005-12-10T01:30:00.000+08:00

Hee, finally back to updating this blog:p
On 3rd Dec is my company's D&D. Quite fun...some pics taken.... ^.^ Oh, during lucky draw, i got a sony ericsson Z800i 3G handphone. Anyone interested wanna buy *hee*?

Have been on training course since 5th Dec till now. Very tiring but quite an experience:p Have a lot of stuff to learn...dunno if my brain is capturing anything haha:p The training is conducted at Merchant Court Hotel, nice place n food^.^ but heard is quite expensive. Have 4 more days to go then will end this training!!!!! Hee, feels so fat after the training as always eating:p

Last month think whole month din blog ba:p Everytime have something floating in d head but well LAZY is the word GOMEN NASAI ;(

Wor, X'mas is round the corner! So any of u have any plans yet? Please update me a WISH LIST!!! Everytime of this season, always have to crack brain on presents haha ^.^ Worse, bday presents too!!!! OMG, so broke = p

Tats all for today...Juz now laugh too much on d way back wif hua, qing n sok, now sore throat n headache:p Once in a while to have this kind of laughing session is good haha...next yr might not have this chance liao *sob sob* HAve to sleep liao...later still have training from 9am-5pm...*sob* on a Saturday;(..............................................

Ending of another month...

2005-10-26T13:44:00.000+08:00

Hee, yesterday qing was saying abt updating blog, so here i am^o^
Hmm..since my last blog, nothing much has been going on...hmm..wat to update leh??
Oh, my bro is doing mlm. My dad was very unsupportive n keeps discouraging him. Well as for my mum n me, we feel tat he will not learn his lesson if its us who tells him off. He will juz find tat we r not supportive of him n his "career". He spend a few thousand to buy d products himself (which i find quite stupid) n he actually say those who those buy for their parents are not being filial! i'm super pissed off by this remark. What has buying this gotta do wif it? Wat have those mlm people teach him! Wah, sometimes the way he tok really make my parents n me quite disappointed:( Luckily, an aunt of mine who used to be in this line b4, was sharing her views wif him. Then, its when my dear bro finally see the lights. Finally he decide not to be so involve in this sales stuff. *phew*
This is d commotion going on in my family haha. Now my bro after sorting out his thoughts, everything is slowly going back to normal.
Hmm..haven hear from d poly grp for sometimes, gals how have u all been? Really miss our outings. When free for another one?
These days are quite boring. Now i'm back to playing sims2 uni n ps2 games. Hee, the sims2 nightlife expansion seems quite fun...tempting to buy haha :p
Have been reflecting on my life...seems like i have no target in life! *sigh* Although i'm working now, but i'm not sure if this is the work i'm looking for... (at work now:p) I dun wanna be so aimless ;( *sob sob*

October already...

2005-10-15T21:44:00.000+08:00

Hmm....time flies. Ever since working, time seems to slip pass so fast. Looking back, i have been working for half a year liao. This company made me feel quite at ease at work, colleagues are very nice and helpful.
Begining of the month, have an outing with the colleagues, dinner n ktv haha. At 1st its juz a plain dinner date for the 4 pple in my section, but then...news spread n pple knew...so its very paiseh nv invite...so asked those tat we r more closed to( even my sup wor:p but she din go eventually) So a total of 12(8 gals, 4 guys) turn up for dinner at Siam Kitchen located in bugis junction. Wah, the food quite spicy and have so many dishes as we going for the buffet. Hee, have problem trying to finish up so :p pass to the guys lor. Have a gd chat with some of the colleagues which seldom tok and get to know some insights ^o^After dinner, some of us decide to go ktv at Hougang, the rest went home. Wor...its a monday n next day have to work leh, ktving till 12 + then went home...Quite enjoyable, but cant do it often:p
Last week:
Wed finally cannot take it and went see Doc. As usual flu n bronchi cough, doc gave me 2 days MC cause he advise me not to blow aircon due to bronchi, but cant lah, cause i sitting rite below it at work mah*sob* so he say this 2day mc i have to keep out of aircon lor. Really have a good rest at home, sleep thru these 2 days. Every since Synergy ended, the 2 days were the most well rested days without worries....hmmm...cant say without lah, coz heard from colleague, Sup is on leave on d 2nd day, i worry they cant cope, but well, my sweet colleagues urge me to stay home n rest as they often see my pitiful state of coldness n cough cum losing voice in the office:p
On fri returning to work, so touched by my colleagues warm greeting and concern of my health. Everyone asking how i am, getting better etc. Even the admin side and pantry auntie asked haha^.^
Now another week passed. No ups n downs so far, everyday dealing with phone calls, and programming request. As sup now is not attending to most of the programming...i'm taking over her part...so stressful as i'm still a green horn and all of the problem i have try and clear. By seeing how long the request list is and how many i have to complete, made me feel so restless . But, hee i'll pester sup to ask her this n tat:p
Gonna plan another dinner date, hopefully is only juz 4 pple in my section, but well, as some colleagues missed out the previous date, so we extend invitation to them too:p This time we decide to go seoul garden, more fun ba. Hee, din leave any other choice of where to go for dinner, if not ah...the place to eat will be very headache to decide as have to think of halal food.
Sometimes juz wonder, is this the job i want? Sometimes feeling too at ease in working will not have the hmm..how to say a feeling to pursue for higher heights. I still wanna comtinue my studies but then...too many other constraints...well then, juz have to plan my way thru i guess. I'm still the indecisive me:p

Midweek^o^

2005-09-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

Hee, updating my blog again:)
Hmm..nothing much to be said as life is still as dry n boring:p
have been sick for a week plus, but din go see doc yet. Have tried to sleep early but din help. Recently seems to have difficulty in sleeping( insomnia??)...the mind is too active;( Really have to make myself real tired n cant think anymore then can get into sleep*sob*
Now lunch time...abt 6mins more then will start work again....
:p like said, juz wanna blog down something but dunno wat, so juz anyhow write lor:p

Finally Over^o^

2005-09-25T02:07:00.000+08:00

Hihi, have been gone for sometime:p Gomen ne. Have been very stress n busy at work recently due to a company event that finally take place yesterday^.^ Oh, juz wanna say this, my previous post Titled: SATURDAY is really a saturday, time i blog it is ard 5+pm liao in d office:p The timing is not right as i forgot to change it:p
Yeah, i finally free from staying back after work:) After being in this organizing committee of the event, i have more opportunity to work with my colleagues from other dept. All r nice pple but d way how this event is been planned is not quite organized. Nevertheless, this event after much stress n sympathy from d pple ard me, have a happy ending. The clip that me n my colleague was doing din really make me feel so impressed, but well, since boss say ok n i'm running out of ideas how to have it modified (n i PRACTICALLY have NO TIME to have it changed:p) so lets juz stick wif this outcome ba.
Have to thank Sok. She so busy and ill, yet i still go trouble her abt how to merge voice n music. Gomen ger. Now i learnt how to use the software, can try to do myself liao:) Boss say d music for d clip still dun really sound nice, hmm...n they intend to show d clip in an oversea event...wah...:p
Like caiyun say, this is an ECA the company gave, no extra pay to it. D onli thing gain is experience n bond. Hee, i was put in-charge of the technical control, which means...d whole run down from the opening; launch and salsa will be under my control. If my timing is not rite...everything might be quite disastrous:p Best part is, no one tot of the intro music of vip to give speech; the launch pad when activated, wat music to play b4 going into clip...Luckily, in d morning when i woke up, i boliao go edit songs which we have actually wanna used but did not. N have to arrange lightings...so i decide on a song, set some timing for d lighting to be projected on d products. Hmm...i really must thanks Karaoke Club when i was in ITE amk. Having the experience in controlling lightings n sound for seminars, events(Investiture), this task assigned to me was quite hmm..ok. As d main control person is not me, i merely juz coordinating wif d DJ, so i juz have to let him know when n where i wan wat. Not like in ITE, have to do everything ourselves. So having everything plan out n set time...took me 2 hrs. Nv know i can be so patient to sit down n think of all this. Mayb is bcoz no one else seems to know, well, cant blame, most of them do not have this experience.
Well then, now everything is over. I finally can peacefully take MC/leave without having to worry, things not done:p Have been down wif flu for a week but dare not to take any leave/MC. Hee, din know i can feel so responsible. But if no one do, i feel very uneasy leh.
Hmm...long time din write so long liao. Now my busy days have juz ended, back to normal working life:) hohoho. Finally can go home on time for dinner, due to this event, i have not been at home for dinner for a week;( n have been skipping dinner as i'm too tired n no appetite. Now i can go out wif frenz after work for dinner too^o^ Yeah!!!!! Back to freedom n no more responsibility^.^v

Saturday....

2005-09-03T16:35:00.000+08:00

Hee, back to update this blog again:p
Today Sat yet still in office hmm...have extra stuff to do so have to stay back.
Actually gonna meet qing n hua go Comex 2005, but seems like cant make it today. Hua meeting CK going, so qing might not tag along lah:p
Oh, on Monday, meet out wif BJ for dinner. Have quite a long chat coz too tired to walk so sit down n tok lor. I'm juz bored now so come here to blog down something:p
Sorry if there is no content in this wor heehee.

Moody...

2005-09-01T10:58:00.000+08:00

Hee...same old beginning...long time din blog:p
Recently hmm..nothing much happened...so nothing to blog. Everyday come and go as it is. No entertainment or spice in life. Feel like crying out as i think i have been bottling up too much but juz cant make myself cry;(
Got this bitter n miserable feeling building up in me...how can i let go? Everyday seems to pass juz like tat n think i'm mentally stressed by all going-ons. Getting sick make me feel worse...have been coughing for a week! Now find tat life is slipping real fast. Nothing much have been accomplished yet time goes away so fast. Is there really a meaning in Life? My mind is so mentally stressed, restless. Cry out might be my best way to release this feeling ba..but how...........................?!

;p long time din blog......

2005-08-01T02:31:00.000+08:00

Hmm...haven been blogging for a month plus....bascially is becoz i'm lazy hahaha:p
Ok quick review of wat is happening ard me for the pass month. From starting of this month, 1-3 july, i went to Batam, Turi beach Resort, for my company's Insync. The place is quite beautiful & relaxing. Its a 3 day 2 nite event. Have got quite interesting activities organized by the management. But too many stairs liao! In my whole life, i think this is the 2nd time i have to climb so many steps in 3 days! The resort is of Javanise Style, so very attic and cosy. The mosqitoes there also quite deadly:p The 3 days there was quite well spent, n also got the chance to mingle ard wif all the colleagues^o^
Hmm....Ater the trip, is back to normal working days....work n home basically. have a few meet-outs wif the gals and tat is how life goes...haiz....
Oh, on 16th July, is the launch of Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Hee, i got up quite early to go buy the book:p n finish reading it on the 3rd day. This book is so sad...a great person dead this time....This time round, there is more on the relationship and romance among harry n his mates.
On 30th, went big boss' house bbq.Nv knew there is a condo bhind Ex-Peicai leh haha:p There r quite a lot of food n "drinks". As the bbq r not quite done, we have salads as appeitizer. Guess wat, i actually ate baby spinach wor @.@ Then big boss is going ard pouring us wine...haiz...no choice but drink lor. 1st is red wine...but i dun really like the taste:p The i change to raspberry vodka lime. This really taste good haha, but later then i realise the raspberry vodka is of 26%:p Then boss wanna pour red wine again....so took another cup of it...but told him i dun really like...then he say nvm...he change to white wine..*faint* So i have been drinking a mix of alcohol d whole nite. After feeling a bit dipsy, went out walk walk, tok wif other colleagues sitting outside, drink some mineral instead haha. Then my colleague Caron, she was eh...hmmm...drunk again...Like when in batam, she drunk too, then keep saying she ok, still can see who is who blah blah blah...haha, so no choice but to send her home lor. Was quite worried if her dad will be angry wif her or not ...hmmm....
On 31st July which is Kenji's bday, we met out at P.S wif Shaun n KY. Then went Fish&Co at Parkmall. Kenji was quite furious wif their service bcoz, after all our dishes have came, his is still missing in action. We r cracking joke like...gotta go fish up d fish 1st lah, need to draw line lah etc...pretty lame ah:p But after waiting for half an hr, he decided to cancel his order even if its done, he wont want it anymore too. Can understand lah, ask d waitress a few time n they say coming till half an hr d fish still haven appear:p
Ater d meal, we decide to go watch movie. We watched The Island. Not a bad show, find tat its quite worth $9.50 ^o^ Its a 2hr+ movie. Then after tat is home sweet home.
Now sitting here blogging bcoz i cant sleep, dunno wat is spinning in my mind now tat basically juz cant sink any sleepiness in me...haiz...better go lie down n start counting sheep haha...if not after abt another 4 hrs i'll have to wake up go work liao...ARGH!!!!!!!

Slacky Sat Morning...

2005-06-04T11:25:00.000+08:00

Haiz...updating my blog from work again:p Today is so boring n sleepy:p So decide to take this time to update this blog ^.^
Haiz...till now still dun have d chance to change my blog layout, seems like when i open d blogsite at home, my layout take quite sometime to load also...hmm...better scout for new ones:p
This whole week at work is pretty draining. Coz, i on training again, this time by my manager(aka boss of my section) haha. In d 1st few days onli me n d new colleague. The 2 of us packed ourselves wif sweets in case fall asleep half way hee:p But then..haiz..din really help much, i still get sleepy. But cant sleep leh, coz boss keep looking at me when he teach. Wah...like being eyed leh;s hmm...then towards the end of the week, another colleague joined us...i changed seat n tot tat have new colleague join then i wont b d eyed target anymore..but *sob* still d same...my colleagues also noticed n commented tat, as if he onli teaching me woh*.*llll Tat leaves me unable to sleep during training(altho i'm not suppose to in d 1st place lah) ;(. But funny lah, i'm not majoring in d module he teaching mah....haiz...d other colleague then is wor...y me ;( *sob*
Oh, good news. I got my confirmation liao. Hee hee, its less then 3 mths woh, i'm surprise coz last mth my supervisor juz told me they might extend d probation period leh...Well, nvm tat since confirm liao hohoho.
This whole week pass by quite slowly....
Mon: After work, went meet Qing watch Movie: Madagascar^.^ Quite funny but the movie seems quite short:p But did have a good laugh lah. After the show, too tired to take a bus home..so too cab:p
Tue: Hmm...at 1st tot will b going home for dinner, but Serene asked if wanna meet out...well, can sense tat she dun sound rite like something is bothering her. So decide to meet her lor. Wah, she surprise me by tearing when we were chatting down d escaltor at causeway point! She having pressure since now she is back at work n have to take care of her baby at d same time. Well, cant really help her much but to lend her a listening ears. Have dinner at fiesta, then chatted till abt 9+pm then go home. Hope she alrite after chatting.
Wed: Hee finally a day i can b at home^.^ n have dinner wif my family. Remember next time dun ask me out on Wed hor, coz i wanna watch CHARMED!!!!! haha:p
Thurs: Meet out wif hua n qing for dinner at bishan's secret recipe. Haiz...another day not having dinner at home:p Well, have a fun time chatting wif d gals^.^ Chat till abt 9pm+ then we decide to go home. Went to take cab near d mrt there..then haha, we found an illegal taxi queue :p pple actully in q in front of d bus stop..hee so we join in d q lor, since d actual taxi stand is so far away:p
Fri: Nothing much, after work go home have dinner. Accompany bro go VCD shop see got any vcd to buy..then home again...Surf to see if there is anymore anime to watch. Then decide to get D.N.Angel n Girls! Brovo. hmm...sad ah...nothing much to do....life is so boring:p
Sat: Later meeting qing go book fair, then in d eveing meeting hua n sok...dunno if sok can join us coz she having fever yesterday...haiz...ok lah, have to go back work.....

sleepy day....

2005-05-31T12:57:00.000+08:00

wor...yesterday sleep quite earlier, yet this morning i still overslept! Till now still sleepy leh. Like going into hibernation:p
Hee, din update for sometime liao. These few weeks past by so fast. End of another month liao leh. Hmmm...by at least at work is still not as boring^.^
Suddenly brain clot...dunno wat to write anymore:p
Well then, mayb update in a few days time again*.* ......

Long day....

2005-05-19T00:29:00.000+08:00

Today have been a long day...so tiring n sian...
d new colleague have been seating wif me, learning programming haha, hee so now i have company lor. Feels so much better to have someone learning wif u:p
Whole day have been quite bored coz not much problem to solve, plus mostly can let d new colleague try:p Then i'll be more free:p
Finally today din eat bread for lunch, went out for lunch haha. Too bored d whole day sia. Ard 3pm+, Boss call to go briefing...tot will end quiet fast, in d end wah...all d way till end of day haha. Its briefing abt another program Training which will be conducted by him. Well coz his been send to Brazil to conduct training there...so he wan to start off wif us 1st lah....:p Well, quite look forward to his training, coz have to focus on wat he say:p His accent sometimes i cant catch*.* Seems like if it starts tml, then my whole day i'll be drained again....
Oh, company going to have a trip to Batam this July 1st-3rd. Mum having been asking me..."u sure wanna go ah? Ur company really going ah?" Coz recently there is earthquake there again..tats y...
Haiz...dunno what to write liao...
Yesterday met qing for dinner, then went her house. Was showing her d new POT musical as the previous musical's cast graduated from d musical, so now got new cast....D new one when i watch i was like ^.^lllll haha. Qing also same feeling:p Then she raided my portable hdd:p
Hmm...dunno wat else to update n its getting late...think i'll go sleep liao...hope tml will be a better day...
Hmm...miss d poly frens...gers when free for another gathering ah???

May...

2005-05-16T21:35:00.000+08:00

Wah, time fast wor, May liao. Hee din blog for sometime liao Gomen ne. Well, partly is becoz at d beginning of this month, i was on training. Too drain by the end of the day so din blog:p Hee, Well, after training ended, d first thing i have to do must be going to d dentist ba. Since i start working at this company, i have been eating a lot of sweets n chocolate;( Everyday at work is quite enriching n fun, but after my training ended, i was put on practical practise of answering calls...wah, really scary, cant even make out wat the name of the caller or d company is, so paiseh. Well, mayb as time goes by i'll get a hang of it:p
Last, last sat after work, meet out qing go cut hair. Hee feel so much better n lighter:p Then went over hua's place to transfer stuff to her^.^ Hee, we have quite a good chat wif all kinds of topics...keep going till 1+am then go home. Quite reluctant to go back haha, was thinking, y not juz stayovern have a whole nite chat haha. So we plan to see if we can have one d following week since qing n i took leave on fri(13th).
13th Fri went out wif hua, qing n sok to ktv, n have a sleepover at sok's place. Hmm..once in a while have such stayover is quite fun haha. Suppose to be a chatty nite, in d end, we're watching tv:p Hee, its onli till 1+ - 2am then d chit chat starts. Din really tok much, but quite fun lah haha...
Recently have been watching korean drama Lovers in Paris. Borrowed d vcd from sok...but well, eventually i bought d disc too haha. Lovers in Paris is a very fairytale-like story, which the romance will nv have happen in this society. Well, then this drama quite entertaining n d ost is nice. After watching korean drama, sometimes it makes me blur between jap n korean language haha
I happen to come across this site: http://www.mylanguageexchange.com/default.asp, which we can learn all kinds of langauges n can make penpals too. Hee, i sign up to learn Jap, Korean n french ^.^
Haiz...now everyday is work n home, work n home...sometimes juz feel tat there is no life... When got home, will on pc to see if have any anime, manga or drama to watch hmm.... sad ah...
Actually, today during lunch, i was blogging wif quite a long blog haha, but then haiz...it disappear! Sharks! Now i din really know wat to write liao...mood not there liao xp
Thinking of changing this layout...hmm..wait till weekend ba...so tired n sleepy now.....

May...

2005-05-16T13:03:00.000+08:00

Sharks, previously is typing a long blog but it disappeared;( haiz...wat to do, retype lor...but now no mood liao...
haiz, lunch time over soon...argh...n my blog went blank! *sob sob* think i'll juz key in when i get home, who knows i might have more to blog:p

New Music for the blog^o^

2005-05-01T04:45:00.000+08:00

Hee, juz got Naruto's 3rd ost. The music all quite good. Hee the piece that i like is the one playing now^o^, sound sad but soothing. I also have Erementar Gerad(new anime)'s one. Very nice music too. Nw onli waiting for tsubasa chronicles one to be out hohoho^.^
Wah, juz now actually wanna go sleep liao, but then at ard 145am, a car go knock down the fencing at the centre divider in front of my house. And it flipped to a side too, wow. At 1st i thot d car juz ski but then it follwed by a bang so i kepo go window see see:p Think no one get any serious injury, d driver n passenger still quite calm..hmm...but anyway, the ambulance came still. The police barred the area but still have to allow other cars to pass. Ha, all d cars n motorcycles tat pass will go slow motion passing the accident scene,.quite funny:p The whole incident took abt an hr to clear off scene, including towing away the car n remove the fencing from the road. I really wonder how the car go knock the fencing...hmm....
Today, went Causeway Pt meet Serene n Pearlina. They meeting for lunch then go pedicure..wah enjoy life haha. Well, meet them up for a while before going compass point meet huishan and hua, later joined by sok. Serene pass me photos of her son Jerel. So kawaii haha. Next time must ask her bring the baby out, altho very troublesome lah :p Hmm...stayed wif them for a while at Sakae then quickily say bye to go meet hua n huishan, but still i'm damn late. The bus also like going against me dun wanna come ;( Finaly the bus came, when i reach is 2 pm+ liao...Gomen ne. They were at yoshinoya waiting for me n haven order food yet...feel so bad *.* Woh, Huishan blangar us lunch ^_^ Hee, then next time our turn to treat her back haha.
Sok ultimate, she sneak out of her house after her grandma fell asleep. Haha coz if she dun do this, her grandma won't allow her to go out at all.But, she did let her mum know she joining us lah. Actually Qing coming my house today, but then...eventually the meeting wif hua they all lasted till dinner time. So qing say mayb come another day....Gomen nasai*o*
Have quite a long chat wif them, then decide to go walk walk ard. Hua wanna get mother's day present. So we went metro to shop. She bought perfume for her mum. Then, went Sembawang music shop to buy CD. Sok bought Paris lian ren's ost(hee, me saw d ost then show it to her to ci4 ji1her:p) and Twin's album. Dinner is settled at Wasabi...wah today whole day eat Jap food:p haha. After dinner, hua went to draw $$ whereas sok go see see if got dress to buy since got 50% off. Hmm...she today really is man zai er gui ah...come empty-handed besides her wallet, go back is a few bags haha. Hua, was browsing at poh heng. A pendant caught her eye but she dunno if wanna buy...hmm... Eventually dun seems to have any other stuff to shop, we decided to head home. Took cab send hua home 1st, then sok's. When on way to sok's place she say wanna go hougang green. So i drop there wif her, walk ard for a while b4 accompany her home to get vcd from her.
On my way back home, called bro to go down to d vcd shop wait for me, coz he say got vcd he wanna buy...;( but then in d end i'm d one footing the bill *sob* sad ah... Also went to d vcd rental shop to rent vcd...the serial he watching have box 2 then finish the set. So luck lah, today have the box 2, so borrow lor...me foot d bill again *sob sob* My salary flow out like that....
Got home, watched Tian Long Ba Bu. After that, go online surf, chat n check mail. then the day gone juz like that.....Life n time is passing juz like that...whats life......
Hmm...recently a bit cranky n morbid haha....plus now this shoulder pain on n off coming......haiz.....wat to do.....life.....

Sian...

2005-04-29T17:40:00.000+08:00

Another day have pass, the day come n go like tat...haiz....
Hmm..nothing interesting to write actually. Now off work liao, but meeting qing 630pm at bugis, if i go now, i'll be so early since she will onli b off at 6pm...So i might as well make use of the change to update my blog^o^
Haha...supervisor juz walked by:p
Hmm...later will be going Sunshine plaza see see, hee, qing ned to release stress haha, me too^.*
ok lah, i think i'll edit this post again tonite or something.....

Updating....

2005-04-28T12:10:00.000+08:00

Woh, last weekend was stunned by my grandma's disappearance. Aunt called to say she n another aunt took bus to tampines buy stuff. but when my aunt got off d bus, she cant find grandma. So all d families went out to look for her. Well, as for my family, when we abt to go out find too, aunt called say grandma found. She actually got off earlier n was lost. But she took a cab to 3rd aunt's house. Thank God.
Hee, this week i din dl any anime at all yet. mayb tonite can start haha...naruto mah.
Recently have very weird dreams. Imagine i dreamt tat i am sleeping when i'm actually sleeping!!!! wah..... Stress ah.
Have been wondering...life is so bored. When working, everyday is work then go home...What's LIFE!!!!!! I tend to make myself cry to release some stress, else i make myself cranky haha. Sad ah, live until like tat.

hee ^o^

2005-04-21T12:13:00.000+08:00

Yeah, me blogging again ^.^ Thursday liao, time really goes by very fast. this week is ending soon woh. On monday, shuhui sms me ask wanna go catch movie or not...but then i was booked so cant make it. Gomen ne.
I wonder how i gonna cure my shoulder leh...d doc's med doesn't seems to be a cure. Mayb i should juz go seiseh instead ba. But where got time to go, everyday work n they close on weekend;( sat half day but me sometimes sat gotta work leh...well them, think i'll take leave next mth to go see ba:p if not might go next sat if my mum if free^.^lll
heee, after watching gokusen in live, i think d anime should b good too. haven got chance to watch yet. mayb i'll watch after work ba...cant fight using tv over the weekend wif my bro since he home not really often.
Now lunch time...i dun really know wat to write lah, juz wanna type some stuff hoho, quite boliao i know but i juz wanna kill some time lah;(
This may not be long but i try my best to keep this updated. if possible, everyday lunch i'll come to update blog haha...see how wu liao i am......^o^

Starting of a week....

2005-04-18T12:24:00.000+08:00

hee, me now at work place typing this blog :p hmm...very fast...already a month liao. My shoulder now quite ok after i took d med n have sufficient rest^o^ Sometimes will still pain lah...think will juz go see seiseh liao if cant cure.
Last nite was toking to hua over d phone at 1+ am haha chat until 3am, my dad's alarm clock rang then switch location from living rm to my bed haha...if not my dad will be..."wah, today working yet haven go sleep!!!!!" so hua called my hp when i got to d rm..but well, her hp low batt soon after too lah :p
Whole of last week hmm...din really have much happening.. oh, sl called me to ask me what job she should choose as she was being offered 2... well...toked d whole of my lunch time...an hr n she still not very sure...but then she did decide on 1. The next day she sms me...she regretted...well....hmm...no comments. for details, go ask her ba*.*
Now working life really is after work go home thing...onli entertainment i have is to get animes n drama to watch. Sad life ne.
Sok going for op tml...well..she is fully geared :p
haiz....dunno wat to write liao ;(
Okie, think i'll juz end here. going for my lunch liao. My colleagues cooking bee hoon haha. Sore te Jya^.*

MC.....

2005-04-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

Hee, yesterday nite went to see doc finally for my shoulder pain.Hmm...he gave me med for nerve pain hmm...n antibiotic too. Best of all he put me on MC today:p heehee. These few days at work have been very peaceful n i start to make call to d client when i finish editing their requests:) Quite fun n i have to pick up d probgramming which, i think is more fun then VB n c program:p
The pain on my shoulder have been on for a week...so i was nagged to go see doc fast:p dunno y after i start working, my shoulder hurts...i used to have this kind of pain b4, but usually for a few days...this time a week liao...haiz....Dunno if its d positioning of d pc in d office or what...hmmm.....Well then at least today i got a full good rest:) althought still have d pain lah.
A lot of anime end liao, but then starting of this month, a lot of new animes r out too^o^ i ones at i'm after are Erementar_Gerad, Tsubasa Chronicle, Mar, Izumo, Magister_Negi_Magi...etc...some in chinese names so better dun put lah haha. D on-going one now onli left naruto ;( Hmmm....recently finish watching gokusen 1 & 2^o^ very nice gokuen(school) story. I can help watching it over n over agin haha....so comical. Today went to d comic shop to return some books, then heard from d shopkeeper tat their bosses intend to sell off their shop *sob* then i no place go rent comic liao ;( D shopkeeper ask me if i wanna buy over...i was like *.*llll how to?! i dun have tat much of $$ although i wanna have a comic shop of my own^.^. Anyone wanna join partnership or wanna have a shop of their own, let me know:) coz d shop intend to pass down d whole shop including d comics as well as d members they have now. Haiz...really hope someone can keep this shop going.......haiz.....

Tired....

2005-04-06T00:08:00.000+08:00

Haiz. another week passed. Work is getting more n more interesting ^o^ but my shoulder pain is back...qing say i may have chronic pain...hmm.....now is juz d right side dunno if my left shoulder will be affected.... Hee, after getting office email addr, have been mailing qing very often hee, saving smsing $$ also:p
Last fri smuggled hua out to go KTV n then dinner at my place haha. In d morning, woke up at 650am, then reached orchard ard 8+am. So early is bcoz gotta accomapny sok go take pic of d tunnel tat link to Tangs for her project. Real weird to do tat early in d morning:p Hee, after tat we wondered ard to see where we can have breakfast. Finally, have a long waited coffee bean breakfast haha. Since last yr say wanna go coffeebean for breakfast but din go, so finally have d chance..... its really a very enjoyable morning, sitting at a cafe at orchard enjoying the sight of people walking ard on a weekday:) Then went sok's house to put down her stuff, then waited for hua to get ready b4 going to pick her. went kbox, have klunch n then d happy hrs...haha then after tat waited for qing to join us after her work. Poor ger suffered under a pig-headed boss:p Well, meal at my place was alrite. Then daniel dropped by n have a chat...hee really long time no see:p Ard 10pm+ Asked dad to send hua n sok home, whereas qing will still stay to continue watch anime n drama haha. D best part is after sending hua home....my dad actually wanna take a route from punggol back home but he lost his way! wah...me n qing were like wah...luckily we din stay in punggol, if not i'll be scared by d silence in d nite n d area tat all look the same! Very eerie like we have been going ard in circles...wah....sweat ah. By the time i reached home again is 11pm+ Qing was very steady watching out for road signs to find way back^o^ Then she stayed till 12am+ then go back home. D next day she'll still be over at my place mah haha.
Haiz...sad, POT end ;( n it have a quite touching ending...making me teared. Not onli PoT, tactics ended too...*sob* suddenly like all d anime i after r all coming to an end *o* SAd...school rumble n haruka hachiyou shou also ended....now is waiting for naruto to end.....*sob sob*
Me now watching a drama call gokusen. Its a female ver of GTO, but d story very comical:) D ending also very touching. Hee, trying to make myself cry these days:p On my bday tat day, coz po have matters to settle so we din celebrate, well then, at least qing wif me d whole day haha, thanx ger for accompanying me^o^ The scary thing is at 6pm+ i got a bouquet of flowers(rose) delivered to my doorstep....wah when i see d color of d rose...onli 1 person i know would sent it...haiz....fancy to have disappear for so long, y suddenly send me rose...the tot scares me:p Hmm...but then, d bouquet is nice lah haha.
K lah, i'll try update more often if my shoulder pain dun persist........

Hee.. end of another week

2005-03-28T01:25:00.000+08:00

Wow, this week ends real fast mayb bcoz have a holiday ba. On Monday i was on mc...bronchi cough back n i keep feeling dizzy:p Work have been still d same....have been to a 3 days training course to learn abt one of the system tat we use. Quite enriching, but i need time to digest them all. On thur took half day went back see doc to change my medicine as it dosen't seems to have much effect:p Then went comicshop to rent novels....haha running out of novels to read :)
On fri, i have an early bday celebration wif jas, bj n sl. We went suntec's cafe cartel for dinner. After tat we chat abit before leaving d place to go fat frog....eventually we din go lah, coz cant find way into d car park. So we have to change location....me tot wanna go ktv, but then...well...we settled to go holland V...but wah...due to holiday ba, there is no parking lot. Finally, decide to go west coast chit chat. Drop by ginza plaza to get drinks...haha guess wat, we went to west coast's mac. so actually no need buy drink lah....Sat there tok tok then seems like a grp of pple keep looking to our side...quite uncomfortable:p hee left then place at 9pm+ coz me have to work next day too lah:) Me got a bag from bj, n Sims2 university expansion pack from jas, sl n gayle. THANK YOU very much gals:) hee these few days i'm hook to d game, so must prob u wont get to see me online often:p Yeah, i also got Dan brown's da vinci code, deception point n digital fortress from kenji, ky, francis, atog n shaun^o^ Met them out on sat for lunch after work. Kenji really ahve a way of wrapping gifts. he wrapped d books in a cloth, then use flowers to deco it wah...really impressive..but when i first see it haha, it reminded me of those jap bento wrapped in cloth:p Heehee, now i have novels to read!!!! hope this can last me till harry potter is out.....which i think most unlikely ;(
Sunday actually wanna go watch movie wif my bro, but then it rained, so d idea was dropped, so i play sims2 lah haha...till now i sitting down here updating blog...if not someone might be nagging at me for not updating again:p Okie...have to go sleep liao...have abt another 5hrs of sleep b4 work......*o*

End of a weeko

2005-03-20T15:28:00.000+08:00

Hee this week seems to pass so slowly. Hmmm this week finally start working at Commserv or communication service pte ltd. The place is not as furnish as philips but the people there r all very friendly:) The surprise news i get is tat most of the peopel there have been working for abt 3- 10 over years. The other 3 colleagues at my side say this is their 1st job and have been working there for years! Wah..wonder wat makes them stay so long....hmmm tat i have to find out for myself then:p
Everyday when i woke up, i do not have this feeling tat says hmmm...today too tired, dun wanna go work...haha tats how i feel everyday when i work at philips. D weird thing is i quite look forward to go work^o^ This week i haven really start any hands on as training have not start. Next week i'll be on training course for 3 days. Hee, working hrs is 830-530, after 530 i reached home at 6pm haha tats surprisingly fast. So happy go home early n rest:) Haiz, have to open an uob account coz d company onli bill in salary to uob:( well then now my posb account $$ drop, *sob sob* so xing tong ;( Now have to stock up clothes for work too...cant wear jeans anymore except on fri ;o more $$ gonna be spent haiz....
Prince of tennis is ending d week after next *boo hoo* so sad. hope they have more musical out since d anime is ending liao.....Now onli left naruto, tactics, school rumble n Haruka naru Toki no Naka de -Hachiyou Shou to keep track^.^
Bj dun say i din update hor, i juz wait then end of a week then update mah:p haha although there isn't much to update abt work lah, wait till i really get into work then will know haha. i might have lots to grumble:p

Day of tots

2005-03-12T03:25:00.000+08:00

Hee, finally start to use this bloggar program which bj recommended:) Well, not really familiar but as long can post n my whole blog dun go missing then can liao:p
Hmmmm...recent events happening...think is all those bdays bah. Suddenly eveyone's bday juz float in wah real broke leh. Lets see from last month's gayle's bday till this week leh...every week got pple bday, not forgetting my dear fren's baby Man Yue lah:) Woh...really can imagine how much i spent on presents liao...also these few weeks' bday r mostly 21st one too^.^lll haha k lah enough of grumbling:p
Yesterday nite had a very weird dream...this is d 1st time in my life i fell hurt in my dream...funny feeling n dream , really have this heartache feeling....previously when i dream of those floods, volcano eruption also dun have this feeling. At the most is panic n force myself to wake up but this dream quite hindering...hmmm.....haha dun say too much abt it lah...just wanna find a place to put my tots....
Have been thinking a lot these days...like y life is like this, y i'm slacking haha.... I have a strong tot...tat is i wanna see all pple ard me to be happy always:) Sudden peace in my mind is quite occasional...nowadays i seems to bottom up a lot of stuff....which i juz simply dun feel like letting go but is going drive me to my peak soon...wondering y suddenly have all this thinking...i too free liao ah haha...
Well starting to work on Monday liao. How its gonna be i dunno but, i hope to meet more good pple:p As long as i have frens ard me its okie, mayb my thinking to naive lah, gotta have someone to knock some sense into me:p
Oh, yesterday went to visit hua, now she recovering at home...she quite bored haha so those who free can drop by her place give her a surprise haha....hua i think i know wat to get for u d next time i visit u liao....i gonna get u Genki Tea :)
Hee those reading this blog, sorry for my messy tots haha...i'll update soon after i start work:) Wish me luck^.* Stay happy always^o^v

Starting to work on Monday.....

2005-03-09T15:58:00.000+08:00

Wah i lost d whole blog i typing juz now...now no mood to fill up everything again....*sob sob*

New Bloggin Place :)

2005-03-09T15:10:00.000+08:00

Hee actually i have this site long long time ago...but coz blogdrive quite easy to use mah so left this blogger fade in my memories:p hee due to requests to change d blog layout....so i decide to use this back then....coz easier to change here lah...dun say i din change liao hor:pBlogdrive one too hard to change i give up liao haha.....

How to live a life wifout comic...

Another end of a year...bye 2011....

A feeling that i thought long forgotten...

1st blog of 2010: Full of complaints:(

Crappy talks!

Being too nice but hv no good return aka 好心被雷劈, 自找麻烦！:p

Resolution for the year....

Back from a short trip^.^

Face the reality!

I Dun Understand!!!

Out of Control!

June already...

Movies ^o^

Coming & Going....

Am i not doing enough????

The meaning of Life

Swirling Nov...

Lost in time....

Awesome Aug!!!

Busy July...

Moving Forward...

April already....updates..

Quote of the Month(March):

Quote of the month....

Looking back....

Thoughts

Taihen Desu ne.......

Flu again....

Confused Mind...

Bloging in office Pt2:

Something to start with....

Its A Brand New Year....

Countdown to X'mas^.^

Lost....

Ending of another month...

October already...

Midweek^o^

Finally Over^o^

Saturday....

Moody...

;p long time din blog......

Slacky Sat Morning...

sleepy day....

Long day....

May...

May...

New Music for the blog^o^

Sian...

Updating....

hee ^o^

Starting of a week....

MC.....

Tired....

Hee.. end of another week

End of a week*o*

Day of tots

Starting to work on Monday.....

New Bloggin Place :)

End of a weeko